A New Beginning

The second semester

2007-12-09T13:19:00.000+08:00

Sunday 9 December 2007

The second semester result was announced last Friday night. Syukur just got through even though it is not as good as last semester but still I got an A+ for my Tax Fraud and Investigation paper with all the tonnes of office works and assignments.

The contractor currently doing some hacking work at the master bed room's shower due to leakage....hilang lagi RM....after my down stair neighbour being complaining about the leakage few months ago but only now manage to repair it due to time constraints. It will take at least 5 days for me to use back the shower...

For the past few days taking my own sweet time at the office, I always clock-in at 9.30 or 10am and sharp 5.30pm make a move. Why? just completed all 2007 works and no new job coming it..Apparently the are two more jobs which were reassigned to me but I managed to persuade my team leader to start in 2008...yes...

What a happy moment

2007-11-15T16:16:00.000+08:00

Thursday 15 November 2007

Currently in view of almost completed assignment in office (i.e the stupid people with stupid company), I come almost 1 hour late to the office every morning for the past few days and go back as 5.30pm. Lunch hour will be from 12.30pm till 2.30pm. Wow...ini perangai balas dendam due to months I never have enough break with tonnes of work!

Like today, went out to Pavillion and had this nice pan mee at the food court...all by myself and again promised a friend of mine to meet him at the Pavillion at 6.00pm...What a good life I am currently enjoyed....hoping it will last till the end of the year 2007.......

By the way, I managed to persuade a friend of mine yesterday to invest in one of my new thing which I hope soon I can be my own boss and at the same time contribute the good life to my friends...alhamdullilah...

It is about time

2007-11-14T15:23:00.000+08:00

Wednesday 14 November 2007

Suddenly feeling shocked looking at my last update in this blog...Wow...what a record! But that is to translate into a situation where I am extraordinary busy all this while. I just completed an 80% assignment on the stupid company plus with stupid people with stupid and arrogant I am dealing with.....and at the end...what did I get? feeling angry, frustration, increased in my BP, lonely, tired, lonely and being part of the arrogant human being...

I have no idea what really happened past few months...the fasting month of Ramadhan just passed with only fasting without any single day doing my tarawikh....where almost the days I went back after 10pm or 12 midnight. Weekend busy with classes and assignments. The celebration of Syawal is nothing and worst...not even go back to Penang (but at least my mum and two brothers came and joined me in Shah Alam).

When thing got worst....I almost hit the Pencala Link's wall two weeks ago due to stress workload given by my supervisor who can't appreciate what I am currently contribute and managed. Thank god I managed the situation in a rough situation where she received my so call "shouting" and the next two days I was on medical leave due to all the stress working situation.

Last two days received a call from a person in relation to the exercise, shouting on the phone at me and I just keep myself calm in the first place but due to his arrogant and keep shouting at me, I stand firm and said I put down the phone if he can't control his attitude...What a waste!!!

Only after few months I managed to do my personal things and keep myself update on certain issues i.e my class, my interest, Olen and Nana...what else...that about all...hehhe and I have make a decision to quit this job in coming months....while I was typing this...received a call for an interview where I just forward my cv last two hours ago.....

Feeling unsecured

2007-06-11T18:52:00.000+08:00

Monday 11 June 2007

Past few days are not easy for me. After the handphone incident, I becoming like stranger to anyone inside the monorel. I have no other alternative due to the attitude of "not driving to town especially to the Golden Triangle".

Forget about the incident...more jobs are coming and I am thinking whether the next semester will be the same as the former one. Class as usual will be only on Saturday and Sunday and I am in a better position that I have a laptop now and the internet connection at home compare with the past few years without it even a pc and internet...just wanna to be different. But after a while, I can't stand anymore. Why? cause more works that need me to update my knowledge and the assignments need to be completed within dateline. What I did last time, after office I will use the pc and complete those things and at the end I managed it.

And now with the old phone (yang boleh buatkan anjing ketawa terguling2 atas jalanraya melihat handphone aku ini), makes me thinking do I really need a phone...a proper phone...Husni, Aiz, Zaza...pls decide for me....

Apala yang aku merepek ni...

I thought of taking one day off this Friday to do my registration...but looking at 4 jobs now...should I just ignore that??...nak nangisssss...penat....help...helppp..sos...

Alhamdullilah...segala ujian

2007-06-01T10:04:00.000+08:00

Friday, 1 June 2007

Syukur kehadratNYA dengan rezeki dan kurnia yang diberikan kepada hambaNYA. Ujian yang diberi juga supaya hambaNYA ini lebih cekal dan menerimanya dengan hati terbuka.

My statement above related to the incident last Monday and the news I received yesterday. At first I was very upset with myself, with people in the monorail and can't even have a proper sleep due to the horrible thing. I was blaming myself for not being careful with my belonging i.e my hand phone. But nevertheless, this incident teach me to be a better person and need be be courteous to the surrounding and it is a test from Yang Esa.

My semester class will resume beginning July and me and the rest of the class are beginning to query about our result. Tried with different avenues to get the result cause the official one will only be posted and published sometime mid-June. I tried to e-mail, calls the lectures, the faculty's people but no one wanted to reveal the result and at the end feeling exhausted. And at the end, my classmate called be late afternoon to inform an excellent news...both of us doing very well and both of us are in the dean's list....I can't believe it myself...

Both incidents show how great life if...ujian, rezeki, terima aje dan berusaha....Syukur....

The Lost

2007-05-28T14:01:00.000+08:00

Monday 28 May 2007.

As usual today I woke up with fresh mind and wanted to start a new week with colourful days ahead. Start the journey at 6.45 and dropped at the bank to pay my car installment. Had my breakfast at Jaring, and drove to KLSentral and took the monorel at TSStation. I didn't put the earphone cause it is almost 8.15am and don't want to be late for work. As usual, the monorel was packed with people and need to squeeze inside. Out of sudden, I feel someone was trying putting his/her hand inside my pocket. But I was not really seriously think people beside me to do that kind of thing, I just ignored that. Apparently, the what the culprit did and I know the culprit is a guy...he took my handphone and at the Time Square Station when he disembarked from the train, I realised that my phone was missing. A person inside the train tried to call my number and it was switched off and that it...end of the story.

Once I reached the office, I called the service provider and what was told by them, the server was down and they will only can block the line after two hours...two hours...I said this is not an answer I expected from them and my line was cut-off. I managed to call the service provider subsequently and it was told the line will be blocked immediately...without verifying my phone number and my postal address. I don't really trust them...and called my own number...and believe me it is still working and I immediately asked them to block it and the officer who picked up the phone asked me to verify certain information and I did ask to the officer why the provider takes thing for granted and he asked me to make the official complaint on the incident. I shall do that tomorrow.

I also called the manufacture's call centre and requested them to disable my phone totally just to teach them a lesson. I was told to get the serial number. I shall go back and get them the number and that it...

Can even have my lunch with the things happened. At start of a day with a bang!!! or bengong...

Lesson learned: Always put your ear phone to avoid losing your phone....

Terlalu lama ditinggalkan

2007-05-24T16:36:00.000+08:00

24 May 2007

I am currently on two months break from class after struggling for four months without weekend with one to another class...free for the time being. Almost every Sunday after class, feeling exausted at the end of the weekend and surprising I managed most of the classes, tests, assignments and final exam with stars (hopefully the final exam result will give the same hehhehe...)

At the beginning of the break, most of the time, I wake up a bit late and lazying on the bed reading the story books. I notice lately I am a bit lack of my reading (keerr...memang selama ni aku memang slow!!!). Now, It is almost a month of my break and the heat of going back for class suddenly come across. I am suppose to pre-register by meeting with the coordinator later this month and another few thousand ringgit will eventually invested as the fees. With big assignments in the office where sometimes I go back late, I am wondering whether I can manage the class and my works for the coming next semester...Inyallah god willing.

Back to daily routine, last week without having much to do on Saturday nite, I was invited by the beloved friend, Faiz and Muntaz for final AF concert at their place. AF was actually not my cup of tea for the past few years. BUT suddenly, the interest came once I watched Mila's performance the second last concert at my sister house....The food was good...Faiz's tempe berempah with Naz&Rai's penggat jagung etc...until I almost fall sleep when driving back home that nite. Thank you guys for the lovely invitation. I know Zul can't make it for the nite due some "sentap" incident...but as what I was told by faiz this morning on the phone..."sentapan" or the drama can't challenge Ross and Naz "The Hanging Nasi Lemak at the Door"...hahahha...

Mak nampak sihat lately, I feel a bit guilty cause from the day of Aidil Adha until now I cannot go back to Penang. I wanted to take a few days off just to go back but due to the work commitments, it is just can't happen. May be I think by end of June before the class start, I will be able to meet, cium dia and peluk dia...heheh

LONG and the most longest break...hehhe

2007-04-03T09:20:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 3 April 2007

Inila yang dikata tak menang tangan. Can't cope with tonnes of new assignments and lot of project papers....New job and new class. I have no life. Come back home just to take a little rest and the next thing I am already on the move regardless whether it is Saturday or Sunday.

There is one Sunday, I just enrol into a new class...The lecture seem can't be bother with our commitment with other final papers and this new paper just started class. Some of us just asked her to courteous to postpone one of the presentation to another later date so that we can concentrate on the exam cause right after 8 April, three of four papers we have complete....and only left is her paper. She answered with a tone "It is no my problem". We are stunt with that remarks and I just keep quite. Normally I am always the want who will represent the class to voice any consent of any issue (biasa typical Aries!!!) but that moment I don't feel like persuading the issue anymore...period.

The next thing I know, I feel like the whole world is coming after me. Mana taknya...the new supervisor with mulut mengomen dan mengomplain aje kerja...new tasks which me mengaru dan trus haru biru jadinya, with presentation this coming Saturday and the next is the exam...OMG...I havve this kind of feeling...DOWN!!!...and after class that day...I can sleep and feeling lonely, exhausted and lazy wanna to go for work or do anything for a few days...To make thing worst one my office's client commented about my understanding of the compliance and follow the rules which I don't agree cause at one angle I want to comply to a different standard rules and the other end another different standard rules...so the best solution is to disclose both...puas hati. But the remarks is like menguris sanubari...and people like me can't simply take thing for granted and I like to defence my argument...but when comes to certain things...the customers are always right...gerammm...

Lastly, with the sad happening past few weeks, I talked with faiz, nurul but biasala when you are the one who is facing the problem, you are the best person to solve, rejuvenate and try to convince yourself again and pray hard...and the rest berserah aje....

Exausted...low marks with low grades

2007-02-26T16:34:00.000+08:00

Monday, 26 February 2007

A new week, a new day with a new beginning...but I am telling about last week story! I was too busy to update this blog...just read a few comments from my beloved friends...(ada ker??). The peak was on Friday, where I drove to office and managed to reach by 7.15am that morning, luckly most of the people are still on holiday mood. I was on the road again at 12 noon just to rush to the Bank Islam PKNS, Shah Alam to collect some of the document there...Reached a bit late but luckly the guard gave the permission for me to be at the counter. If not I have to wait at 2.30pm when they open back the counter...eee...

Drove back to the office and continued my work till 7pm....by the time my boss reviewed the "thing" it is already 9.30pm...Instead of meeting Malik in KL which was planned earlier, I drove to Sg Buluh to collect the bantal...bestnyer...by time I reached Shah Alam, it is almost 12 midnight. Seem Olen and Nana were curious why their angle can be at home like anybody else...

The next morning woke up as usual and had this lontong at one of the Johorean Bryani Gam restaurant near to my place. The class was good that day but by the time I completed my assignment, reached home...It is already 1am...worst...then at 6am I can't sleep thinking about class mentioned I got the highest mark for the recent mid-term exam...I was wondering this is not true and yet the y confirmed the news...During class, it seem the news turned to be false information..hahahah...the guy who confirmed apologised but I said I am care cause I know I am not doing well during the test...

Went to my sister house right after class and she cooked nasi dagang...sedapnyerrrr...ememem...makan dengan lahap sekali..

No idea what had happened at me last weekend with all those paper works, assignments that never ending..

Aiz: Grey Anatomy is consider "spending a productive time?"

Zaza: Where is your update dear...I know your time is occupied with "him"....

What A Long Weekend

2007-02-21T09:36:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 21 Feb 2007

I couldn't believe the traffic when come to Malaysia's festival sessions. I rather stay home and have good rest that spending unproductive and tiring on the road. No wonder I don't bother about this CNY...I always take the flight and safely reach hometown. Last weekend started from last Friday night. I met Zakir my close classmate since school at 9pm. He sent me home just to have a view of my place and agreed to become my tenant at one of the empty room. Pity him actually with his marriage life which make me scare of what going to happen to me in future....But life is about...(can't figure out the word!). Saturday have to attend a replacement class with Prof Sha and I was breaved enough to ask him the permission to dismiss the class one hour early so that the whole class can have time to prepare for our mid-term exam at two. The exam was a bit hard for me. But managed to complete within stipulated time period. The exam and the class ended at 5.30pm and I rushed to my sister house just to grap early dinner.

After Maghrib, drove to fetch Nate and straight to 1-Utama for back-to-back movies: The Holiday and Music & Lyrics. Is just like something that I didn't do it for a long time...both are good. Sent Nate back to his place and I only manged to sleep at 2.30am. The whole Sunday, doing nothing and only watching Grey Anatomy Second session one after another episode. What a 'productive day" I was wondering the end of the day. Btw, at 8pm...I saw a sirens and patrol cars at the back lane of my house. It suppose to be a quite area actually. Only realised there was a motocycle rider was killed and I was so afraid to be at the screne....On Monday morning when I was jogging, I still can see the newspaper which cover the dead body together with that guy shoes...pity him...

Tuesday, I received a called from Dr Zul who wanted to meet at his place, went there at 10.30pm and came back at 12.30 midnite...tired.....

The Story of Cipan

2007-02-13T09:38:00.000+08:00

Tuesday 12 February 2007

It is an honour for me to give some story about cipan. (Aiz, must be happy with this...) To start with a cipan story, I was on one day leave yesterday, only after three weeks working...with purpose...to be exact with cipan purposes (plural lagi ok!).

I woke up as usual day and start to drive to KL using Kesas...teruk tahap cipan...why...cause starting from Bukit Rimau interchange there was a bad jammed as usual. Further, I got to pay RM4.40 to use Kesas and the end need to follow Besraya to avoid Jln Sungei Besi...another cipan...why...a bad decision to use this highway with a massive crawl...alamat aku lambatla attend the court 1st hearing. I reach Dataran Merdeka late and feeling horrible tahap cipan cause I feel like done something bad ...a criminal....never in my life I have attended a court proceeding...To make thing worst...from all the rooms, no information disclosed about my case....what a cipan....aku rasa...opppsss...I don't want comments anymore takut kena cottempt of court...matiii....

With a big frustration tahap cipan, I drove back to collect my cheque from EPF ShahAlam...worst...need to wait for another 25 people in front of me....The cheque was wrote under my name....wow...if I want to abuse it...I can do...buying iPod, PDA phone, one laptop which I really need it...tapi tak nak la...cipan lagi....then heading to UiTM just to pay my fees...and it is not my day...the wouldn't want to accept my personal cheque and I need to go to Bank Islam to make the payment....tak berharga ker duit aku ni...by twelve...straight to MidValley again to have my lunch with Malik, Mira, Zatul and the rest of my former team....6 of us...By two rushed back to Bank Islam, PKNS but was told I need to wait for three days to clear my cheque....cipan cipan...straight to Post Office at the ground floor to renew my driving license...OMG...there is no such service offer in Post Office, PKNS...I heard last few weeks ago...Post Malaysia came with a statement that from now...people can renew their license at all Post Office ....what a fake....terpaksa la pergi the Post Office yang lebih besar where I waited for another 45 minutes....I think I better not to eloborate further what happened for the rest of the day where I reached home with some frustration tahap dewa cipan....

O......Aiz...puas hati tahap cipan??

A full of surprise

2007-02-06T17:39:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 6 Feb 2007

A second day of this week. Work is getting more and more each day. One after another. But as what I mentioned yesterday, I am getting used to it already...just waiting for a right moment to complete it. Yesterday, someone from from the office e-mailed me and asked whether I am his senior in U. I called another guy to confirmed and at the end we changing e-mails and end up had the teh tarik session after 6pm nearby. He asked about how much I am getting here. At first I reluctant to disclose knowing my it is not nice and I don't want to feel cheated again if I know other salary. I just mentioned a range basis and he replied my pay is on average ...okla tu kan...syukur.

Went back and was wondering about the salary and at the end I come into a conclusion, as long as the company can pay me accordingly, I accept it dengan hati terbuka....and knowing about minimum 8 months bonus for the recent year, aku bagai terbayang WOW...itu sudah baik dan alhamdullilah.

This coming Sunday, will be my mid-term exam...feeling just yesterday I enrolled into the course...time passed...For the past few weeks, struggling to complete the tasks given by the lecturer plus the presentation we did now the exam...luckly the information I need is there and just need to rewrite, replan and recosmetic aje so the write-up and presentation turn to be nice, sweet and get the appropriate marks...

Husni and the rest are going for ikan sungai bakar in Ulu Langat, tomorrow...I can't make it..pity me, Faiz and Zaza...sajer tau Husni and Aiz ni buat time org tak ada masa...

New post, new time table

2007-02-05T11:19:00.000+08:00

Monday 5 Feb 2006

Probably it is not too late to wish everyones, Selamat Maal Hijrah. This Hijrah has a big meaning for myself. First just started my new class with a mission to gain as much as possible my forensic skill, not using the the knife or sissors but more towards the analysis and critical thinking. The class already started beginning of January and I have to sacrify my Saturday and Sunday (Nak nangis!). But demi kerana (dramala pulak...)...tak dengan rela...pengorbanan itu ke satu matlamat yang pasti...menuju puncak...but not AF punya tag line song...Beside myself and one of my former working collegues..most of the class are dominanted by IRB people...and each from Royal Customs and the other one from BAman....wowwww....what a bunch of people...

To make things more 'meaningful' within the scope of my working life...I just started with my new career after I considered a quite some peiod of time..hhaha(mesti Malik lepas ni tercengang). That why a define HIJRAH is so meaningful to me....mana tak nya...last day when I was in my former office is the last day of 1427H and feeling sad to leave behind my working collegues, my department and my boss. I have gained a good knowledge with the job....not to be left out...about MALIK!....hahah...

My current job is very demanding as well as the office location. Mana tak by 6.30am I already on the move and reach office by 815am. Work till about 8 to 8.30pm and only by 10.30 or 11pm I can reach my beloved home. So for the past two weeks, my life is similiar to "Eyes of Malaysia" pusing-pusing duduk tang tu. By Sunday nite I am almost exausted and the only thing I wanted to do is go to Pulau Dok Dok (atau dgn kata lain pergi tiduq).

I think these activities would become routine once I get use to it...go to class, work, class, work, pets, home, karipap etc etc...and once these become routine, I will be a normal person...am I not normal? OMG...

Ok...enough with the above story, now talking about love...wow....no...not talking about my love life..I have enough love from my Olen and Nana..I am so happy for Husni and Zaza...wow...tak lama lagi boleh makan nasi kenduri kat Taman Tun...yes...green ker out theme colour...best nyer...nak plan for the coming Zaza and Alif's wedding..As for Husni...berumahtangga dah, register dah, bertangga-tangga ke sini ke sana dah..apa lagi yg belum...ooo...the announcement belum...opppsss...btw..happy tengok those two love birds...ememme jelous..

Care Less Atitude

2007-01-13T12:22:00.000+08:00

Saturday, 13 Jan 2007

My second entry for this year. Something new that I realised at the beginning of the year...getting more wild, more outspoken...and yet a bit bitchy.....alamak...takutnyer...Bukan apa I had a few arguments with this friend where he cannot keep a promise to be on time. There are two incidents yang membuatkan "aku punya blood go upstair and mutton crossing the road" and the first one is the meeting (where I did mention in the blog) where I have to wait for few hours at "outside" his sarang with my office entire to help him......and I was so angry and kecik hati that time cause I am tired, banyak nyamuk and rasa macam nak menyumpah semua orang. The other one, where I don't want people to come to my tetatak buruh yang serba kekurangan for the raya cookies baking session sometime back in 2005...and afraid of people negative perception towards me and my place (the place I stayed turned to a disaster after I am jobless, left over by my love one etc...etc) and merajuk menjadi resam seseorang itu yang suka membuat anggapan, tafsiran sendiri.....After a while, things getting better and we become a good friend back.

Last few days ago, I met him for a tea tarik session...and those incidents were brought up...selepas beberapa bulan....we argued whose right and whose wrong...but there was no ending...masing-masing keras kepala nak tegakkan pendirian and feeling I am the top of the world....hahahha...Tapi itula tak guna bergaduh, bertengkar...kalau tak ada conclusion...just accept who he/she is....but try to change the 'syaitan kecik' in you...And I know being an aries...where the attitude of "peduli apa aku" orang lain nak terjun gaung ke...biarkan saja...is in me...the attitude of...I am always love to be dominance in what ever I am doing, most of the time...

Who ever he is...I still anggap he is one of my best buddy...

Time past...more mature....

(P/S: Nurul...?? fly tak turun2 ke????- a different story coming up)

HAPPY 2007

2007-01-04T08:52:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 4 Jan 2007

Probably it is not to late to wish everyone a very HAPPY 2007!

One of the resoultions 2006 that I have achieved...make a career move...and last 22 Dec 2006 at last I get the offer..YESSSSSS....

Wishing the coming year 2007 will be more meaningful to my career, my cats, my beloved family, my love (itu pun kalau ada la...)

Simplicity make perfect

2006-11-14T11:23:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 14 Nov 2006

Today is my first day of working after a long weekend plus the great wedding of my niece. I being so busy for the past few days and everything runs smoothly. Faiz has played a major role as the wedding planner with some help from Korma, Shaniza and Zul. Thanks guys for the help.

Masa akaq, secara tak sedar, menitis air mata gembira yang my niece ni dah jadi isteri orang...the favourite one masa I kissed her. Around 11am semua dah selesai. Majlis resepsi bermula sejam kemudian. My niece and her husband sibuk dengan acara lain dan ku I pulak sibuk dengan tetamu. I made some karipap pusing for the guests sebelum menunggu lunch. Wah dapat pujian terindah...heheheh...sampai ada yg nak intro aku dekat kekawan...ennnmmm...for me...buang karan aje...

The bersanding bermula awal sikit at 1 pm...cantik sangat...dengan gaun ala English ...ehehheh....dahla bersanding dgn konsep persandingan dalam taman....

The worst part at 2.30pm the rain was so heavy...but luckly most of the guests dah balik. Faizah, Din and Husni came after the rain...thanks guys for coming. Soon to post most of the picture...

Esok dah bermula....

2006-10-31T19:47:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 31 Oct 2006

Arrived with mum approximately 12midnight...and it is late. I hate this kind of experience. My mum can't sit properly using the wheel chair. She need have to walk using the staircase...very not user friendly of our airport especially Bayan Lepas! Luckly nothing happening to her along the journey. If I know this kind of experience, I rather use Malaysia Airlines....

Mum agreed to come along for the coming wedding after I pujuk dan rayu aku. At first she reluctanted to join me and wanted to follow my brother but due to the time and I already booked the ticket mau tak mahu terpaksa ikut. But since this morning she looks healthy...itu yang penting.

Luckly I didn't bring directly to my the house and straight to my sister's place...I didn't know until this morning that my only house does not have the electricity for couple of days...patutla masuk rumah bau macam semacam since all the food inside the freezer turn bad....yak!!!! I took almost 2 hours to clean it....penat....

Tomorrow morning will be attending the coming master program and will be back to the office in the afternoon...puas gila cuti kali ini eventhough received some calls from office due to some work...which was sent when everyone is on holiday...Tak sabar nak pergi kerja....

AIDILFITRI KINI MENJELMA

2006-10-20T14:38:00.000+08:00

Friday, 20 Oct 2006

Di kesempatan ini, pembaca-pembaca budiman, saya ingin mengucapkan :

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI,

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

Bagi yang ingin berjalan jauh...berhati-hati...(terutama Korma, Zul yang masing2 nak balik ke Kedah dan Perak). Buat Naz selamat berraya di samping bonda dan ayahanda mertua di Johor...(jgn gaduh nak balik Ipoh). Buat Aiz and Deen..kalau kerja kesiannyer..atau gaduh nak balik Melaka or Johor..Buat Nurul...emmmm tak tahu la pulak. Buat Adi and Dia..syoknyer raya berdua,Untuk Zaza...selamat semuanya, for Nate selamat bekerja di hari lebaran triple pay...Untuk Zali & Azam...sorang disana sorang disini...di sana rindukan disini...cian...

I flying back to Penang this Sunday and will be backed on Monday 30 Oct and only start working on the 2nd Nov...oooo...best...esok hari raya!

Too Short of Time....

2006-10-16T14:37:00.000+08:00

Monday 16 Oct 2006

The Ramadhan almost comes to the end. Just a bout a week people will celebrate the Aidilfitri. I am sad....this Ramadhan is just having another Ramadhan...not much change of my attitude of praying (still tunggang terbalik), the food consumption etc etc... Hope that next coming few days will be something different. Ini tak almost everynight end up berbuka dengan kekawan...sembahyang tarawikh entah ke mana lepas tu...

Well the recent interview with one of the merchant bank hope to be a good start. I am still waiting for the date for the second round interview. The first round I just met with two of its first vice presidents and seem they are happy with me. They just need me to meet with the HR and the operations people....and according to my friend who works there, the chances is high since aku dah 'kau-team' dengan big boss. Wish me luck for the coming one. I really need a change from the current place and new job environment...Insyallah. Mum seem happy with the news. On the day I went to meet those people, I called her to ask her blessing for me to face them. She sounded so happy with the news and advised for me to keep praying and praying...

This break-up for the puasa with some of my friends at KLCC. Againnn...penatla...anyhow the bunch of people I haven't meet fo quite sometimes...Ju, Lynda, Mimie, Asri Kunyit, Deen and Hamdan...they all are my classmates in UM dulu...

Running out of time....

2006-10-13T09:26:00.000+08:00

Friday, 13 Oct 2006

Just had a glass of water for my sahur this morning. I feel so tired if I have heavy meal...a normal practice for me all this while. Went for buka puasa with Hamdan last night at Nikko Hotel..and it is fully sponsor by his free voucher.

Diam tak dia, sedar tak sedar we actually enter into the last 10 days for the Ramadhan. This morning the khutubah over the radio discussed about the berkat of 1000 malam Lailatulqadar. Dalam masa sekejap itu terasala insaf..tak ambil kesempatan nak menambahkan pahala puasa....hanya berpuasa and one or two times for tarawaikh... wondering whether I can still meet next year Ramadhan again...only god knows..

Nothing much of raya preparation this year....As usual I will make the last minutes preparation due to the current work commitment. Only going to make the few cookies this weekend, hopefully. This year will the 5th raya without my beloved late father. Planning to visit the grave on the eve of Syawal. That will be the sad moment for the whole family....opppsss...I shouldn't carry away with this feeling...

2006-10-10T07:34:00.000+08:00

Tuesday 10 Oct 2006

I was wondering this morning on way to work. Why out of sudden the road was so empty at 6.40am. Eventhough the journey started approximately a bit earlier this morning right after watering the plants and threes I still wondering and the most interesting part why most the driver at Kesas have this feeling of driving during weekend.....emmemeemm...

At 6.45 once I am almost reach USJ/ SJ junction when the radio mentioned that Selangor is on holiday to celebrate Nuzul Quran....oooo......gitu...benaknya rasa...Reached office at 7.05 where it is dark and I am not the earliest...Amy our so call the HEAD CHIEF SENIOR SECRETARY to the Chairman is here already....thinking...what time she left her house...

Tonite wanna to show my sister the so call my antique teak sofa which I bought 4 years ago at a price of RM10. The remaking to something can be used is still in progress due to budget constraint. Probably she can use that for the wedding and redo the whole thing and I will pay her later...ambik kesempatan...

Other that the puasa, kenduri, the hair, the karipap nothing much happened. Tomorrow will be another try for another attempt at one of the interview...Can't sleep last night thinking what kind of questions would come out tomorrow...if I get it it will be something different from my current one...

Selamat Menyambut Nuzul Quran:

17 Ramadhan mengingatkan kita tentang penurunan al-Quran. Perkara yang penting dan hebat ialah tentang Al-Quran itu sendiri, ia sebuah kitab yang datangnya dari Allah, Tuhan yang menciptakan manusia dan alam seluruhnya.

Mengikut sejarahnya, Al-Quran diturunkan pada hari yang ke 17 Ramadhan. Walaupun kewujudan alam sudah sangat hebat, yang menunjuk bahawa pencipta dan pentadbirnya tentulah Maha Agung serta Maha berkuasa. Namun begitu ada di kalangan manusia yang tidak endah dengan al-Quran. Tidak meyakini kandungannya walaupun Allah sendiri mencabar di kalangan manusia yang hebat supaya menandingi al-Quran, kalau manusia tidak percaya al-Quran itu datangnya dari Allah. Walaupun telah berlalu selama lebih 1,400 tahun ditinggalkan oleh Rasulullah SAW, al-Quran masih utuh terpelihara tidak berubah kandungannya. Berbanding dengan kitab-kitab sebelum al-Quran seperti Injil, Taurat dan Zabur telah diubah kandungannya oleh tangan-tangan manusia, walaupun pada asalnya diturunkan daripada Allah juga melalui rasulnya (utusannya) iaitu Nabi Isa, Nabi Musa dan Nabi Daud.

Firman Allah bermaksud: “ Dan jika kamu tetap meragui tentang al-Qur’an yang Kami wahyukan kepada hamba kami Muhammad s`aw, maka buatlah satu surah sahaja yang sama kualitinya seperti al-Qur’an dan panggillah sesiapa sahaja yang boleh membantu mu (untuk membuat surah tersebut) selain daripada Allah, jika kamu orang-orang yang benar (kamu dapat buktikan al-Qur’an itu bukan dari Allah)”- al-Baqarah: 23.

Rambut sama hitam hati lain-lain

2006-10-09T10:06:00.000+08:00

Monday 9 Oct 2006

Both of my parents have a lot of white hair at the their young age. My sisters and brothers also facing the same this genetic situation and I am not exception from this syndrom...period. Past few months ago, I feel so odd and have this kind of low self-esteem kind of feeling due to this. Probably due to the stressfull working environment and genetic the white hair grow like no one business. I hate that!!!

Last Friday, met with one of my collegue and he told me what really happened at my department...I replied nothing much and I asked him is there any grapevine among the staff...He replied my white hair tell a lot...what a remarks...so I made my conclusion...I need to do something about this.

Sunday...went to the hair saloon and hair-dye my hair...with dark brown colour...there it goes...and jeng-jeng...brilliant...I feel like I am 10 years younger that my age now...emmem...smart movement.

At the office this morning, people were suprised with my so call..."Raya Mood" movement...They like it but at the same time they prefer my the old hair....cause to them I look like George Clooney in white hair...apa-apa pun I am happy now...

Small busines with loves

2006-10-03T09:13:00.000+08:00

Tuesday 2 Oct 2006

All this while, I love cooking. Still remember, masa nak raya aje I will take the lead to determine what kind of cookies my mum will have to prepare. She loves cooking at that time especially those traditional such as pulut kacau (wajid), lopes, seri muka etc etc. I started to help her to prepare the kuih when I was in primary school in the 70s.

When she doesn't want to make the kuih raya due to her age factor, I felt so sad and there is no excitment for the raya. Few years down the road, I started to prepare myself with her guidances. Ingat lagi masa nak bake kek kukus raisin...tak jadi....sedih gila...terus campak kek dalam longkang...hheheh. But after that everthing turns right...that the spirit...I never give-up. The only thing that I am trying to avoid are the people who come for visit dan dijamu dengan cookies and cakes which I made myself. I always ask my mum to pretend that she is the one who made those cookies and cakes.

Tahun berganti tahun, I never miss raya cookies, with the built-in oven I specificially bought for the purpose of exposing myself with the hobby in cooking I explore bits and pieces here and there from my mum, my sisters and some from the books.

Some people did ask me, why I end up being an accountant and not into cullinary business...hahhaha...The answer is always, I don't have the gut to face negative people remarks in 1980s. Now things change so fast...
My collegues in office request me to prepare for them my mum's secret karipap pusing. Thing turns good, orders keep coming back but I only take small order for the moment. Even my close friend's mum made a remarks "Mira (my collegues) kalaulah engkau ada lagi adik perempuan yg bujang, kita boleh calonkan ...kan..." what an honour....walau pun dia tak tahu...aku siapa sebenarnya...hahahah...

The Engagement

2006-09-16T14:10:00.000+08:00

Saturday 16 September 2006

Yesterday was the most suceessful at work. My monthly report to the director and some of the other oustanding issues resolved. At first I was reluctant to take an off day this coming Monday \, but after that...everything should be ok. Syukur...

After the previous write-up, I was thinking nothing could change people attitude except the person him/herself...Tambah tambah kalau dah tua bangka/gayut. ...Malas nak argue...never end...apply aje 3R...relak, respect and respond...

This morning woke up late, stuck in traffic jammed along the NKVE, and Batu Tiga...reached my sister's place after 2 hours on the road...Was discussing with my sister to bake her bread pudding and curry puff for tomorrow my niece's engagement. Dah nak bertunang anak sedara aku ni...Pak Teh dia...single kekal....by choice...& this morning I wanted to do the cooking, there are a lot of people at the kitchen...malula aku nak tunjuk skil. So need to wait after those people leave....

Monday....will be on leave for a day...yahoooooooo...

Reasonable, Kind aren't enough

2006-09-13T10:48:00.000+08:00

Wednesday 13 Sept 2006

Being myself, a person who always make reservations when dealing with certain issues etc...etc..and when an exceptional incident happened where you made a strong remarks or indirect advise to a person with the intention so the person will realise that something is not right or an actions need to be done immediately so everyone can move on. No other hidden agenda...just that...well...that remarks was not seem to be a good advise...at the end you are at the wrong position...why you made such remarks?....

Well in this universe, no one perfect..."Tiada siapa yang sempurna"...pasti ada cacat celanya walaupun minor...

Life goes on...

Situasi Memalukan....

2006-08-21T08:20:00.000+08:00

Monday 21 August 2006

Was driving to the office today with not much traffic due to school holiday...horray...and listening to HOTFM chat....about the "situasi semasa angkat nikah". Laughing with most of the stories...yela ada yang kena angkat nikah 20X...and earlier this morning on tv3 there was one topic called..."perkahwinan satu hijrah"...emmm...ni semua pasal the big storyline on CT and Dato' K's weeding...dahla almost dekat Masjid Wilayah and my office...

Pepagi lagi I sent a sms provoking my friend who used to like, love etc CT so much. Dulu kalau aku cerita CT tu macam tu macama ni benda yg negative about CT...dia akan melenting and we even fight and not talking to each other for few days...now semua tu makan diri dia balik. She is so frustrated about CT going to marry that guy. She even made a called to a Suria ke Sinar FM and marah2 CT....as for me...ko kahwinla dengan sesiapa sajer...wouldn't care less about other people...as usual.

Last week was the most stressing week for me...my monthly report...my presentation outline, my replies for the records this and that....at the end I 'm late to attend to certain requirements. And the worst is on Thursday and Friday I was required to attend a task which is not under my scope of work but due to certain people I have to concentrate on that and leave my job to the side....At the end...disaster...

And last Wednesday I had attended an interview with a foreign financial institution. Received a call who where at first I though is a friend of mine: The conversation goes like this:

Mizal (the HR guy) : "Hello can I speak to En XXX"

Me : Yes speaking...

Mizal: En XXX, I have at my table currently you CV.

(In my mind, I am trying to figure out who is my friend ni yang nak menyakat aku...)

Me: Yer nak apa...(with the a sacrastic tone)

(the situation goes for few minutes with my voice was not in a couldn't care less...mode)

Mizal: So we would like to call for an interview sometime this week...when are you free?"

Me: O...yeke...(dalam keadaan bersalah nak membetulkan situasi...)

I was lucky cause that guy was very professional and take it like nothing happen. Aku termalu sendiri..

That interview started at 6pm (admire the time) and ended 7.30pm with one Mizal, one Senior Manager and the other GM...I don't to predict the outcome takut tertonggeng2 kalau tak dapat..

This week to my tuition classes with students were interrupted with my work commitment. I am exausted most of the day due to this...But anyhow the situation is getting better after most of the things completed. Hope for better days a head.

Got to go...for En Husni...nah ambik ko....

Nak tak nak...nak tak nak...tak nak? sudah...

2006-07-21T15:12:00.000+08:00

Friday, 21 July 2006

I am typing this entry when half of the department are attending a big meeting which I don't need to attend. Feeling happy cause I have my own time to do this entry.

Last Friday, B made an effort to sms me after the incident I refused to follow B to the place and the attitude of laziness growing in B's body that I don't see a reason to go and be firm. B can't accept any rejection and I am have a 1001 reasons for certain issues. Almost two weeks I just ignore B with the purpose to let B knows that B is not mature enough with B's age. B smsed me asking me if wanted to celebrate B's birthday last Saturday. At the end, I promised B to bring B for a nice cozy dinner at one of these hotel...either Lemon Garden or Crown Mutiara, KL.

B is a lazy, immature guy ...a 12 years old kid trapped in a 28 years old guy....that my statement when most of B's actions are very questionable and most incidents we ended with a big fight.

On B birthday's night, I had made a reservation to treat B at the Crown Mutiara and at the end we ended up not having any dinner....From Chili (need to wait for almost 2 hours due to B's kehendak)....where I having my dinner without B there, went to Paya Serai, PJ Hilton without a proper dinner and end I alone end-up having coffee...then to Uptown Food Court just to please B...and B just had a glass of coke because I am so mad and tired of B's attitude.

There was an incident few weeks ago where I paid a visit for Rizal at Glenagles, B don't want to follow me and wanted to spend time shopping at KLCC...just according to him...to buy some toileteries only available at Guardian, KLCC...I don't see any substantial reasons to this and I don't really buy the argument...

B realised that I am not the kind of person who like to tolerate on all these nonsense. For me, I am very pratical and reasonable in life. "Takan nak beli ikan siakap yand boleh diperolehi di semua Tesco di Lembah Klang, terpaksa batal dan mengajak ke Tesco lain sebab Tesco di Shah Alam terlalu kecik...."....I don't need this...

Last few days B was in Melaka and give me B's silent treatment. I am ok with non-existence. Only I need back what B's owing me.....after this bye bye...I rather being alone with my cats than dealing with dumb and stupid fellow....

Stress but enjoying...

2006-07-12T10:10:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 12 July 2006

Still goes back late lately due to tonnes of outstanding reports, presentation, reports again...etc..etc...sampai bila mau habis ni...Yesterday there was one presentation and only after the third attempt it managed to be cleared. Not because I don't do it accordingly to the instructions but the issues, the objectives keep changing and if I make comparison between those three presentations none looks similiar. Malas la nak bertekak...ambik ko...

Last posting I mentioned that my job application was turned down through an e-mail. Everyones concern about my feeling last Saturday. Aiz, Zaza and even Mr Kurma too...Guys...I am very the fine...It is just an expression and frustration and certainly not a depression kind of mode. Only sound sad that moment when I was writing the post. After that life back to normal. Even Aiz asked who going to take care of my Olen and Nana...emmm...would you like to be their "mak angkat"? . Btw, Olen and Nana for the past few days were so behaved. Last night, both of them just follow me to the room at 11.30pm when I just said I am about to go to sleep. Probably they noticed that I look horrible tired and need a space....They just ran to the bed and cudling each other where I just watch them.

This morning the whole department is so quite. Everyone is busy doing their works and not even care about other people life. For them the most important one is to clear outstanding works and waiting for tomorrow meeting. And me, blogging...curi tulang...just to clear my mind (need to clear from the words of allegation, dubious, questionable, doubtful etc...etc).

The Curse....

2006-07-08T09:24:00.000+08:00

Saturday, 8 July 2006

I am writing this entry at my office with the intention to complete my work before 2pm. For the past few weeks, days and nights, most of the time I always end up go back late and tired of doing other activities.

This morning received a reply e-mail from a company base in Belgium for my job application I sent weeks ago. Turn out to be unsucessful for unknown reasons. A bit sad and feeling being cursed by evil spirit to get make a move. Not that my current position is not good. It is a good training ground with I learn a lot compared to my other former organisation. But anyhow, I must be thankful and bersyukur for rezeki yang diberi.

BTW, dalam kesibukan tahap dewa, went for Zaza's birthday party for her "23" old years. The rest of the team look super...dress to kill, except me at Alexis, Bangsar. I was late for the dinner, only managed to be there almost 9pm.

Rizal currently still in hospital almost 3 weeks. Most probably be going there this afternoon for a visit. Feel sorry for his health now. I hope he will recover soonest as possible.

Sometime being reasonable and practical attitute will give a bad impression to other people. This is what I am facing now with my relation with B. Practical to spend money and reasonable towards other people end up I was treated as a "cold" person. God knows!...

The end of an episode "Untuk Sekian Kalinya"...that's the thing...

2006-06-28T12:38:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 28 June 2006

The last weekend started on Friday. Went back to Shah Alam just to inform the sales and services of Electrolux, the refrigerator I bought within a week is not working. Need to wait till Monday for them to fix the problem. Rushed to Subang Jaya's komuter station to buy the train ticket for the journey to Ipoh and meeting with the rest later today. I can't take a day off to tumpang Faiz's car cause they are planning to start the journey as early as sesudah subuh (which I doubt so in the first place) I shall reach Ipoh appox. 2am.

By 4.30pm the plan changed. The group which supposed to go need to replan the drama untuk sekian kalinya final episode scheduled to be aired on Saturday at noon. By 5.30pm I just sniffed out from the office without anyone notice. We started the trip almost 6.45pm. The weather along the journey was not so good. Most of the time it is raining. Reached Ipoh at 9pm and straight check-in at the hotel and rushing to Naz's residence at Meru. At lot of drama(s) at the scene where I think I am pity with Faiz, Korma, Zaza and Zul with their commitments to complete the tasks as soon as possible to please the newly wed couple. Faiz and Korma, a statement..."that's the thing...you started with nothing, ended with a super, most beautiful pelamin..." Zaza and Zul, I wish I can be like both of you...tersangatla sabar...where myself wouldn't care less about the wedding...I need my rest...period.

Wedding went well, where I don't like to describe the scenario and we headed back to KL after that...but before that we singgah at the kopitiam cafe to have roti bakar and the kopi ais.....lazatnyer.....taupau same nasi ganja in the event of hungry along the journey...

At the highway, singgah sebentar at the beautiful waterfall near to Gua Tempurung...take a break and had a wonderful time...makan nasi ganja, performed the prayer with the sound of the river flow, pakai kain pelikat...sweet memories (lepas ni boleh buat filem baru pulak..."The 10 things we need to forgive and forget")...thanks guy...

B was a bit upset cannot meet him in Ipoh. The situation does not allow us to meet. B came to Ipoh unplanned. I asked B earlier to attend the wedding, B said he can't make it at first. Worst is I don't drive and I don't not really familiar with Ipoh, furthermore, It is not appropriate to meet in view of the dramas etc etc. B merajuk and I not good in memujuk. For me, the situation is not right, period. Anyhow we going to meet each other this Friday.

Monday, I can't move my head and only managed to see the doctor at 10am. Took the prescriptions and the whole day was in bed...

P/s: Aiz...hang tak rugi apa-apa for the wedding, hang only miss nasi ganja, kopitiam, roti bakar, the flow of the river which cost only RM70 per person per trip.
Husni: Cian kat hang tak boleh follow the same car....

The wedding, the relationship and the kids...

2006-06-20T10:26:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 20 June 2006

Naz is officially someone's husband last Saturday in JB. I was with B at 1 U when I received the message. Proud and happy with this after knowing him for sometime. Eventhough (ada jugakkkkk...Condition ni...) our friendship ada pasang surutnya and naik bukit turut bukit but somehow there always be something inside between us that make us still remains friend. I know sometime I am too sensitive or wrong thing at the wrong time or he makes things look bad and stupid...Things seem to work out at the end of the struggle...The most recent one whereby I just put the nasi lemak and keow teow at his house's door during the preparation on his engagement few months ago after waited for two and half hours. Tired and exhausted with the office works and can't stand waiting outside of the house...that will be the best way solution (p/s...Millennium years of IT etc with the usage of handphone just by a click)...Now everything turns to be better if not the best. Can't make for the JB trip for some undisclosed reasons (jeng! jeng!)...Waiting for this weekend for Ipoh reception. Luckly was informed the person wouldn't be able to join staying with us at the Herritage Hotel this weekend (at least I know, I am not the only evil here...heheheheh...betul tak Zaza?)

Back to my normal life, B and I keep to intact together lately. The second week after we met, I drove to Ipoh for B's doa selamat, then B came to my place the week after and last weekend we together again. B's interests are mostly shopping and having nice clothes and latest trend of dress...Totally opposite than mine. He loves to hang around most of the Klang Valley's shopping arena i.e KLCC, One U to name a few...And being at my age...I will feel restless after that. Last weekend when B was around just teasing B to cover Berjaya Times Square, Lot Ten, Sg Wang and BB etc etc...

I have started my tuition class last week with Daniel and Sha at Bangsar. They are so smart kids. Teaching make me relief about the office and other problem. Maybe I need to make extra effort for my maths and bahasa before I start my class....

Two weeks ago went back to Penang with Kak Chak and Abg for our cousin's wedding. Mak seem so kuat when we reached home that day. Normally when I asked her through phone, she doesn't go for any wedding due to her illness but knewing that we will be attending this family reunion, she seems different...syukur... Sunday came back and surprised with Nana and Olen's notty attitude where they like to throw the food and water. Maybe they are jealous about B.

Another day in Paradise

2006-05-23T14:11:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 23 May 2006

Went back almost 9pm last night and the rain was so heavy along the Kesas. Earlier, almost the whole day I was sms the person while the person was on his way back to K town. Sometimes, I gave a call just wanna to listen to the person's voice.

I did ask the person was the move between us kind of rushing. The person admitted both move and the person mentioned I shouldn't affraid or paranoid about the past history. The person even clarified there is different between likes and love. I am just being conservative about the whole thing eventhough from the physical I look strong but down inside hanya tuhan aje yg tahu.

At home, Olen and Nana were waiting for my return and they are actually starving especially Olen...hungry for food, probably due to the rainy day. I just can't stand with the red eyes and need some rest...but before that still watching Prison Break while waiting for my dear B (the new name for the person). Maxis line is so bad lately around my place and only can talked for short while. B reached K around 11pm.

Once I reached office this morning, gave B a call but the line was never answered. Frustrated and the sms also never replied. At 11am only received the sms and B informed that B just woke up and will take a day off. I miss B actually and so do B. B called me A.

During lunch time today, while I was ushing my collegues do their shopping at IKEA, B did something that make me terharu..."eemmemme..." terharu...

Well things will change either for good or the other way round. Hoping for the bright days.....

Malam Bulan Dipagar Bintang...makin indah bila dipandang...

2006-05-22T09:24:00.000+08:00

Monday, 22 May 2006

Friday afternoon went back a bit early due to sleepless pattern I am facing currently. Can't really wait for my draft report submitted to the boss even the due date is on Monday, but in in the middle of the highway, my collegue called about boss looking for me and at the end he just passed the draft report to my supervisor. Dalam hati gubra la jugak but at the end nothing harm cause I done my part. Hamdan came at 12 midnight to borrow the car for his brother's wedding on Saturday and Sunday. Came with nasi briani, one of favourite dish. Makan sampai tak ingat dan tercekik.....

Saturday, prepared myself for another party, Shamsul came and voluntary to send me to Somerset, KL....marvelous idea...At the hotel, only birthday boy a.k.a Rizal and Mud were there and Rizal not feeling well.. berselimut...The party was great with similiar faces for years and the food yummy...laksa johor etc...till 12 midnight still more people coming. I not really like to be in crowd...lemas....duduk bilik tengok tv...Shah, Ciki, Malik, Kamal, Shidee ...thanks for the warm friendship all these years. At 12.45am...semua jadi burung hantu...me almost 3 years temporary from the radar suddenly wanna to shake a bit...joining me...Rizal (kekonon nak keluarkan peluh), Ciki, Shidee and Faizal, Shah and few of the patrons headed to MTQ. The night full of excitements...dancing, show, etc etc...I really enjoy myself...terasa pancit sikit tapi tak sedar diri dah senja. Remember I noticed and informed Shidee about his wrinkles were so clear at the party....but anyhow that part of life...

Came back at 4am and only managed to wake up at 8am...Left the place at 1pm. Thanks Rizal.

Back home can't really open my eyes...took a nap the whole day till 7pm...nak jadi apa entah...malam terkinja2 tak ingat dunia...Suddenly, I remember I need to meet someone and where I never before. The meeting just happened at 12.45 midnight after Hamdan returned my car...jeng...jengggg...and that it...I think I 'like so much' the person and so do the person...and why it is happening now when the person need to leave back to K Town in another few hours and I need to start my normal routine work at 8am???. Spend a nite (with no other intention) there where we talked till 4.40am..where I need to go back and don't want to be late to the office.

I am a bit zzzz....this morning but the situation makes me alert about......"dah terjawap ke my wish" approximately a year with no one fulfil the empty heart and currently?...Someone has steal my heart...alamak tertinggal...alamak...betul ker...alamak...takut...etc etc...help...help...aku kelemasan...

My own character

2006-05-11T09:30:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 11 May 2006

Went back late last night to complete certain tasks in order for me to have a nice decent holiday beginning tomorrow till Tuesday next week...Yahoooooo....

Yesterday when I was about to attend a meeting where I called this guy a week before. At first, he reluctant to attend with arrogant voice... He even asked for an invitation letter...bla...bla. So I just followed the rythm and forwarded him a fax which required him to be at our place...bla...bla...Apparently, he called me once received the fax with soft tone and asked us nicely...After a brief with my boss and decided I shall be excuse from the meeting...yahooooo...to need for me to face this type of people. So the whole morning till lunch hour still doing some related tasks.

This coming five days break I am planning to complete 3 books which the two are the new one. Plus probably going for walking at Bukit Menteri Park near the mosque for the next couple of days and cook some cookies for my niece and nephews at my sister's. Last time I managed to make karipap for the whole family...licin...penat but it is a wonderful experience when you put the love to the dishs. Probably if the rezeki murah wanna to invite some of my friends for small kenduri where I will cook all the dishs (tapi ingat bila dah ok sikit...pesanan buat Korma).

Will start my small tuition mid of this month at Bangsar. A friend of mine asked me to continue her teaching for her to concentrate her new demanding job...I stop teaching Maths and Science since early last year due to some unavoidable situation where the mum was trying to seduce me.....hahahha...fikir balik...tak berbaloi...

Found about this charateristics table below. Some of the charateristics describe about myself are right such as reserves, observer and easyly angered. The rest I am not so sure. BTW, probably some of you would like to match your charater following your birth month....do this table associate with the personality test??

Selamat bercuti !

JANUARY BABY

pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.

FEBRUARY BABY

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH BABY

Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.

APRIL BABY

Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer evryone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hy per. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. hott but has brains.

(p/s: Korma the one that I highlighted really tells about you!!!)

MAY BABY

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards oppisite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.

(p/s: Someone can describe perangai "dia" tu)

JUNE BABY

You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!

JULY BABY

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dis likes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST BABY

outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.

SEPTEMBER BABY

Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.

OCTOBER BABY

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

(p/s ADI: This is so you...the orange in colour)

NOVEMBER BABY

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month.

DECEMBER BABY

This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible... better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.

Biarlah Rahsia..

2006-05-10T12:31:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 10 May 2006

I am currently writing this posting after almost half the day stucked with assignments. Pandang aje pada picture on the left that what currently happening to my blog. Full of messages, lot of post-it- stamps that need to be cleared. Emmm...

The weekend started with the Lantai Tipinkie at Istana Budaya. Well sad to say, the whole play are so bad...daripada tak faham terus tak faham langsung. Nasha can't even acted...just wanna to show off her XXX.

Last Saturday, lunch at kedaimakan, D'sara Perdana with the tatlers (some of them) plus Zaki and Sudin. In first place though of leaving around 4 or 5pm end up lepas tu till that cafe almost closed....The critical discussion about the personality test we took online http://oneishy.com/personality . Well getting more confused about my own pesonality...how to match and get along with other people. Tapi the good things...blend...On way back, hujan punyala lebat maka terjadila banjir kilat somewhere Kesas Highway (E5) which I managed to avoid...luck me...kalau tak mau tenggelam bersama lumpur...

Sunday, left to meet Hamdan at 11am to KLCC. With thousand of people which both of us end up at Kinokuniya. Bought Respected Sir by Mahfouz, Naguib and another book. As usual, took a sit in Coffee Beans and read those books till almost 6pm. Reached home at 8pm...Penat but terasa overutilised the weekend.

Then tertengok last song by Siti Nurhaliza@ konsert jomheboh ...terus terkedu...for a guy who basically do not even admire her like other people...till this moment I keep playing the song on my pc...sedap bangat@ gila...Biarlah Rahsia...aduuuuuu.....

Mak called on Monday, with a very good advise..."Sabar...rezeki halal tak kemana, usaha dan tawakal..." terus lega...

Wonderful weekend

2006-05-02T16:25:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 2 May 2006

Ahhh....kelegaan menikmati cuti2 hujung minggu with cats, dvds and santai....If the trend like this there is possibility I will end up in ward disebabkan tahap kemalasan tahap cipan. Last Friday before the starting of the weekend, my colleague who prevoiusly transfered to another department few months ago got an offer with much much better package and better position from current position....I am so happy for her knowing what she is currently facing in my department and our organisation plus with her three little kids and not so establish husband. It is actually a rahmat for her with the patient all this while. Our kind of situations almost the same...how to mantain a simple affordable life....no hassle for work, have decent kind of income to support life, keep small saving for future...etc etc...and she will be able to gain these by joining another organisation with better recognition from the management. Congratulation to her!. As for me still struggling with the current job with little pay and recognition...opppsss should't say that....

Saturday, had this call monthly gathering at Zul's place for the lousy AIM13. Nothing great just feeling tired and borrow some dvds for the next day and Monday viewing. Though wanted to watch them starting from Sunday's afternoon but end-up started watching one of the dvd as early as 2am till 5am....

Sunday, woke up had late breakfast and had this marathon viewing of dvds from 11am till 8pm and only stop for prayers....aku dah gila agakner. Gila cause I not even have the time going out for lunch or dinner...only fried this Faiz's left-over tempe ...yummy.......kalau beginila mau boleh pakai Merc at the end of the year...hahhaha

Monday, as usual taking care of plants where I got rid of all the unnecessary things yg dah menjalar rumah sebelah dan keep the unwanted orkids from Zul...Went to C4 and bought Munich dvd...after halfway watching the dvd....conclusion: hanyalah propraganda Jews to support them....

Today, submitted 2 days AL....trying the best to clear the ALs.....

Sarang labah-labah

2006-04-25T15:53:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 25 March 2006

Ohhhhh...besarnyer sarang lelabah. Dah berzaman tak update...

As usual the same excuses given...due to work commitment. tapi this time around memang betul dan sudah semestinya betul bukannyer benar dan semestinya benar belaka. Actually I was required to do two presentations for management update something where the factual information need to be there without simply put the figures. I was not the person suppose to be in-charge in the first place, but due to unforeseen circumstances, requested to continue the work...For me as long as the fact are there, work need to be completed within the time frame....tup-tup....spt biasa bila dah halfway towards the end of the animation of the powerpoint realised that the fact was actually an assumption only due to incomplete information provided by third party...When my head dengar ini semua...so apa lagi...no presentation...what a relieve...dah la sehari dua minggu ni keluar rumah belum matahari terbit balik rumah selagi tak habis buletin utama jangan harap nak sampai rumah....

Last Sunday was supposed to attend a kenduri doa selamat at the opening of kedaimakan...While doing something that weekend...received a call and a remarks which made me sad, angry...rasa macam dirasuk syaitan....I ended up drove to Genting from noon till 8pm. Genting made me visualised the raining in Brussels...mulalah berangan-angan ingin kembali ke Brussels to hidup dan mati di sana....tapi itu impiannyer ingin kukembali ke sana dan tak ingin kembali lagi...tengokla sedikit masa lagi....

Semalam.....the department was so senyap and we can only hear our boss voice from morning till 9pm. The boss was so energetic with all the views and information...even to argue with him need you to think first and build up your argument....kalau tak senang2 aje kena tembak berdas-das...Kalau incident nak apply for a day off....macam berdosa dengan dia aje...to that extend...

Zoom...

2006-04-05T15:48:00.000+08:00

Friday, 7 April 2006

Past few days I attached with some work commitment and at the end my blog was left without updated. Even today few are still outstanding. Nak tulis apa pun dah tak tahu. Anyhow Tuesday, was my so call tv date. While waiting for my favourite series on tv and feeding Olen and Nana there is something across my interest - persidangan dewan rakyat. There were a few MPs were debated on some issues and they are accusing some GLCs (Government Link Companies) do not meet their social obligations and at the same time their profit targets. The MP even suggested to nominate some MPs into these GLCs' board of directors. I was wondering whether these type of people suite to be there (ie in the GLCs) for them to monitor the conduct of these GLCs or they actually have different agenda?? We used and still have these people in some of the GLCs even with other companies but still the performance do not carry much value...setakat jadi independent non executive post with passive voice tak ada maknanya. Even there is a company this person is used to be the Executive Chairman went into the drain and this guy currently held a ministry post...vice versa...kalau kita nak orang-orang macam ni menerajui GLCs lupakan sahaja.

Yesterday with the incomplete tonnes of work, managed to have my lepak for short while at Kunta's place with the lagsana...enak...thanks Zaza for the treatment. The future mum to be, looks so "comel" dan sihat...even the future papa to be....

Back to the office this morning with a bit sleeply and need to proceed with outstanding reports and few powerpoint presentations...will complete before end of today....terkejar2 for the coming four days with nice staying cuti2 at my own heaven...call HOME...

Adois...selamat berhujung minggu and selamat menyambut hari keputeraan Nabi Muhammad S.A.W

The way we spend our days....

2006-03-29T14:19:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 29 March 2006

Attended a health talk given by my organisation's in-house medical practitioner yesterday. It is quite informative in view of the current development of our way of life, the food we take, the unhealthy lifestyle (junk food, no exercise, elevator vs staircase), the pollution etc etc, that makes life more challenging...

I noticed that lately, I getting very lazy to exercise. After long CNY holiday, last February, the ability to restart what I have already begun was too slow. The excuse basically...tired, too much work...bla...bla... Basically all the lame kind of excuses...The squash racket I bought last time was never used....

The doctor disclosed the alarming rate of few diseases plus the current worry about bird flu!

On the other hand, I need to go for a leave which is very difficult for me even to get a day off. The other day, I told my supervisor, I need at least a day off just to relief my tension due to work commitment and from early of this year I don't have my off day yet and I am afraid that my annual leave given will lapse...(tak nak aku!!!...since the organisation don't practice the cash payment for the unutilise leaves anymore....). Today submitted just to get a day off without a reason...Aku hanya nak bersenang2 dlm rumah with Olen and Nana...lama dah janji dgn dia orang ni nak bermesra....(Aiz...they really talk to me about the way I spend my time...!).

Wonderful Day

2006-03-24T17:36:00.000+08:00

Friday, 24 March 2006

Woke up and saw two sms from Nate and Zaza, wishing me a happy birthday. Thanks in a million. Rasa macam nak pergi cium...bukan com molot ok... Came to the office also the same, almost everyone here wishing me the same and wonderful years a head. To all my collegues, terima kasih..

Surprise came this afternoon when I was about for Friday prayer....an sms from unknown 016....so touching with a selamat hari jadi dari my beloved ex-senior manager when I was attached in C'jaya...Pn Taksiah...she still remember my birthday when we almost heading our own way 4 years ago...After prayer, gave her a call and did chatting about her and the husband...nice couple..Terlalu hormat due to her intelligent views, thinking etc. She lost her job due her vocal in term of management's wrong doing...worst than mine....tapi itula kan she was braved and so mindful with all the nonsense and now she recovered dan jadi seorang wanita yg cukup dikagumi..tomorrow shall be my date with her in Subang Jaya. Probably her husband will join us but selalunya tak...aku pun nak pass two books to be borrowed about the corporate governance. Btw she actually a lawyer by training.

Those close collegues asked me on e-mail when I am going to end so call bachelor day...hahah..jawapan sinis aku biasala..sekarang dah rasa terlalu tua nak kahwin...dah tukar term dari bujang kekal kepada teruna kekal...yg kelakarnyer one of my girlfriend asked me whether I'm interested to be introduced to one of her Kelantanese cousins...banyaknyer kan...plural...tapi aku siap cakap...nak buat apa kalau I jadi macam you asyik perang dingin dgn laki..masam muka...(where she always have this perang dingin dgn husband)...and she just stopped halfway without provoking further due to my so call bidasan...hahahah..and one of other collegue ni siap mentioned in the e-mail that Ross ni, tidakkan berbini sebab he is being so dull kalau ada pompuan suka...(ada incident where I just totally ignored the existing of a few girls that trying to get my attention when a few of us when for lunch at MidValley few months back!!!)...being Ross...

Okeyla need to complete one minor thing, selamat berhujung minggu...

Angka keramat 37

2006-03-23T18:57:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 23 March 2006

Was unable to write for the past few days due to work committment. Just curi-curi masa after the critical task almost complete. In my department currently there are some minor renovation being carried on for additional cubicals with new staff coming in. The department seems expending but few people also leaving the department and ultimately the organisation. N being the latest who just tendered his resignation letter on Monday. he is joining an incubator company which managed by the government. I was actually being asked to forward my CV but after few thoughts and afraid of being another 'tikus makmal' I turned down the offer...just had a bad experience with so call National Service (not that national service). Till now the phobia of the treatment is still there. Maybe I am not suit working in that kind of envinronment...kot.

Tomorrow, is my big day...for certain people. For me is just normal...my age will turn to 37 years old. Sound old...No celebration. Hopefully at this age I have good return Insyallah...dimurahkan rezeki yang halal, kesihatan yang baik, rakan-rakan yang baik, suasana kerja yang condusive, meeting with nice and carring partner (wah gitu..engkau ingat engkau diva!...hahah), kucing yang manja dan baik...hehhe...dsbnya..

Yesterday, Adi told me about one incident...Tak faham dengan kerenah manusia...yang slah itu tetapla salah...sabar ajela

Zaza: Thanks for being my friend, appreciate that. One of the day...I make the nasi minyak + ayam masak like that day for us and the rest to mentedarah..."doakan I yer"

Kunta: Terimakacih...my birthday is tomorrow...that for the pre-birthday sms

Pak Usman Awang

2006-03-17T08:14:00.000+08:00

Friday, 17 March 2006

Tiada apa yg nak ditulis, hanya nak berkongsi hasil nukilan Pak Usman Awang...berkenaan Melayu

Usman Awang 1999

Melayu itu orang yang bijaksana

Nakalnya bersulam jenaka

Budi bahasanya tidak terkira

Kurang ajarnya tetap santun

Jika menipu pun masih bersopan

Bila mengampu bijak beralas tangan.

Melayu itu berani jika bersalah

Kecut takut kerana benar,

Janji simpan di perut

Selalu pecah di mulut,

Biar mati adatJangan mati anak.

Melayu di tanah Semenanjung luas maknanya:

Jawa itu Melayu,

Bugis itu Melayu

Banjar juga disebut Melayu,

Minangkabaumemang Melayu,

Keturunan Acheh adalah Melayu,

Jakun dan Sakai asli Melayu,

Arab dan Pakistani,

semua MelayuMamak dan Malbari serap ke MelayuMalah mua'alaf bertakrif MelayuDalam sejarahnya

Melayu itu pengembara lautan

Melorongkan jalur sejarah zaman

Begitu luas daerah sempadan

Sayangnya kini segala kehilangan

Melayu itu kaya falsafahnya

Kias kata bidal pusaka

Akar budi bersulamkan daya

Gedung akal laut bicara

Malangnya Melayu itu kuat bersorak

Terlalu ghairah pesta temasya

Sedangkan kampung telah tergadai

Sawah sejalur tinggal sejengkal tanah sebidang mudah terjual

Meski telah memiliki telaga

Tangan masih memegang tali

Sedang orang mencapai timba.

Berbuahlah pisang tiga kali

Melayu itu masih bermimpi

Walaupun sudah mengenal universiti

Masih berdagang di rumah sendiri.

Berkelahi cara Melayu

Menikam dengan pantun

Menyanggah dengan senyum

Marahnya dengan diam

Merendah bukan menyembah

Meninggi bukan melonjak.

Watak Melayu menolak permusuhan

Setia dan sabar tiada sempadan

Tapi jika marah tak nampak telinga

Musuh dicari ke lubang cacing

Tak dapat tanduk telinga dijinjing

Maruah dan agama dihina jangan

Hebat amuknya tak kenal lawan

Berdamai cara Melayu indah sekali

Silaturrahim hati yang murni

Maaf diungkap senantiasa bersahut

Tangan diulur sentiasa bersambut

Luka pun tidak lagi berparut

Baiknya hati Melayu itu tak terbandingkan

Selagi yang ada sanggup diberikan

Sehingga tercipta sebuah kiasan:"Dagang lalu nasi ditanakkan

Suami pulang lapar tak makan

Kera di hutan disusu-susukan

Anak di pangkuan mati kebuluran"

Bagaimanakah Melayu abad dua puluh satu

Masihkan tunduk tersipu-sipu?

Jangan takut melanggar pantang

Jika pantang menghalang kemajuan;

Jangan segan menentang larangan

Jika yakin kepada kebenaran;

Jangan malu mengucapkan keyakinan

Jika percaya kepada keadilan

Jadilah bangsa yang bijaksana

Memegang tali memegang timba

Memiliki ekonomi mencipta budaya

Menjadi tuan di negara Merdeka

Usman Awang- 26 NOVEMBER 1999

"...Kau ingat kau Diva"

2006-03-14T09:15:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 14 March 2006

Last Saturday doing normal cleaning before went to my sister's house...buat kerja sambil watching tv...as usual Olen and Nana have to be in their cage since they are so afraid of the vacum cleaner...hhahhah...rasa neyr dia org perasaan benda tu macam monster since it has a loud noise.

Oleh kerana the activities done in a layman term end up finished at approx. 1.45pm..emmmeme...mula2 bercadang nak lunch at my sister house while watching Sutun2. So after shower and Zohor terus aku mengadap kotak empat segi tu for the telemovie.

My comments about Sutun2. It is a great drama...tanpa membariskan pelakon2 yg cun melecun or popular tapi tak tahun nak berlakon...Aku rasa macam seronok sangat the way Sutun dibawa...tak macam certain movies...typical drama...

Till now still terbayang satu scene between Khalid and his girlfriend after they went for shooping..."...Kau ingat kau Diva..." the way Khalid buat stail dgn lengok dia tu buat aku terguling sorang2 kat depan living...

Walau apapun taniah utk pengarah, crews and pelakon2...Sutun2...

Kau pergi jua....

2006-03-13T09:14:00.000+08:00

Monday, 13 March 2006

Nothing much happened during last weekend except, Isz came over to take his IRB letter and spend sometime with Olen...Sad and feel dumb about what has happened between us. Sad cause the feeling is still there and sincerely love him with no reason. Dump cause questions why those things must happened, I mean why he goes for someone else, searching for unknown reasons and at the end being left alone. I tried to hide the saddness feeling when he knocked the door. He tried to avoid eyes contact cause he can feel that I was looking into his eyes.

The suffering make me thinking again, why there are people like this...blindly accept other when you already with someone and can't really accept this mistake and back to the former love...I do love him and want him back, I never hate him but feel hurt when he wants to be with someone else...Ones I love someone the love will remains there...H, Irw and Isz. That why after second thought, I feel this kind of relationship doesn't goes anyway when both parties don't find a commitment between each other. Others might have a long relationships other that LOVE when there are other commitment such as kids etc.

When I was watching tv last night during Nita and Hazami's performance, the song from Ajai and Kris brings those memories and end up...slept at 10pm last night with the intention to kill those sad moments...

Reading Aiz's blog on her cats conversation (benar atau palsu...fake or reality), makes a bit the sad weekend story. thanks Aiz.

Hampas

2006-03-10T15:15:00.000+08:00

Friday, 10 March 2006

I sent memos to two managers in two different departments for the coming meetings where they suppose to attend after an e-mails forwarded to their respective secretaries to confirm about the tentative dates and the representatives for the whole year of meeting. After the assumption that the bosses agreed about the dates etc....one of the secretary came back and mentioned that her boss can't make it for the meeting due to her tight schedule in March. Helllooooo...I pun apa lagi..."my blood go upstair" and "mutton crossing the road..la" . I did not receive and reply or even phone call to confirm the particular and in the e-mail specifically mentioned about need confirmation from them...tup2 bila dah cantik semua datang mau buat perubahan...Nak aje aku cakap..."hello, you are the secretary and suppose to mantain your bosses appointment...and you are paid to be busy occay"...

Tired of working with people bila you dah diberi segala avenues i.e. phone, pc with e-mail, face to face meeting etc...tetapi tak nak pakai....lain la kalau disaster ker, tok nek nak menikah lain ke or what ever reasonable reasons...nak aje aku mencarut...tapi tula org kata mencarut will lead you jadi manusia pelupa...

This afternoon I didn't see her call or e-mail requesting to change her boss schedule...that it...datang Monday ni jangan nak ngada-gada cakap tak cukup masa...go and fly kite.

Inila mentality sesetengah orang...datang kerja entah apa yang disibuknyer..takkan receive e-mail hanya utk suka2.

So to conclude this week punya entry...I achieved something...managed to complete my comments and reports within a stipulated dateline..even it is really time consuming to vet thru all the submissions, the applications, this and that...amin...

To zaza: congratulation to you incoming promotion...bestnyer...
To aiz: cantiknyer kucing2 you
To Kunta: nasi daging + ikan sepat ronggeng
To Adi: akhirnya kerinduan blog you terubat
To Nate: have a good weekend

Today lesson:
Work smart and hard

Olen and Joey

2006-03-06T14:38:00.000+08:00

Olen and Joey, that cheer my days. Nana doesn't want me to take her picture. May be she a bit shy to the camera. I already give Joey away to my friend so that he can play with his new family. Even I am still miss him, but for his better future, I think this is the best decision and I knew my friend would love him as much as I love him...

Penangan Kas Kas

2006-03-06T11:10:00.000+08:00

Monday, 4 March 2006

Not be able to write new entry due to work commitment. Aiz and Zaza....mohon patik barang berehat...Pasal kucing Olen, Nana and Joey tu dah ada dlm koleksi I nak post tetiba today the icon to upload the photos tak boleh la pulakkkk. (sorry aiz)

Yesterday....after few weeks ingoring my plants, right after servising the car. Removed the tanduk rusa plant which suppose to be sent to my sister for my brother in-law to cut into two in exchange of anoter version of local tanduk rusa....so that aku boleh tambah lagi version baru tanduk rusa. Replanted back the pennyworth (hydrocotyl unbellifera) which was already need more space. Had to throw some of it to the rubbish due to the uncontrol increase in their population....maklumla green fingers...hehhe...The bunga kerak nasi is staring to flowering again...wanginyerrrr....

Nana, the sole female cat I have tersangatla nakal...she just ignore me when I asked her to back into the cage lepas dia keluar without my permission, then last night bila dah tahu aku marah...masuk rumah berbaring atas katil dengan posing ayu dan control muka kesian dia...bila tengok macam tu...cair aku tak leh nak marah...

Went to my sister house with the plant but can't do the cutting sebab hujan. Balqis is getting better after the treatment and to send her again for checking next week. Try my sister pineapple tart she baked yesterday...sedapnyerrr....Friday ni aku nak gi makan lagi...

Penangan kas-kas of the Saturday dish terbawa-bawa till Sunday morning. I think everyone will feel the same...mesti semua laloq...

Zaza...keep cool...don't give up. You still have me and the rest...

What an excuse

2006-02-28T13:04:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 28 Feb 2006

Was ironing my clothes last night while keeping eyes at Olen when he was playing on the dining table. Suddenly saw an sms about the 30 sens increased of petrol....OMG...tak cukup lagi ker with the burdens I am currently facing. Forwarded the sms to other friends and even Kamarul replied with remarks that he just bought Nissan 4 SUV that evening...kena ikat perut jawapnya..

Can't have a proper sleep due to all this. This morning while reading the front page of theStar was shocked with the lame excuse about the increase given... Understood that there is a need to reduce the petroleum subsidy and channeled that to improve our public transport system...talking to their nose...does our RapidKL lrt or monorail covered throughout the whole Klang Valley? Surrounding my office, the only public transport serves here is Triton bus which comes every one hour and end around 8pm...Still remember the day I took the bus from my house to komuter shah alam and took again this Triton bus at KLSentral and the journey start at 5.45am reached office at 9am!!!! This what we called a proper way of using public transport. We have so called intelligent cities, Putrajaya and Cyberjaya...and its were properly planned (as claimed) but when comes to public transport...none...only bus !... Shah Alam and to be precised Selangor was declared as NEGERI TERMAJU PERTAMA DI MALAYSIA public transport hancur.....Imagine negeri termaju "terancang" where last Sunday facing the flood around the state capital city!....and excuse again....pembangunan tak terancang di sekitar KL yg membawa limpahan air banjir ke Shah Alam...the question again...mana perancangan yg diheboh2 tu...(takziah for the people affected)

We cannot avoid of facing the increase of petrol...but what other alternatives to improve our quality of life...at least other alternatives such as tax rebate for the cost of petrol consumption from house to the office, employers' own transport ker or some other better ideas. Dlm banyak-banyak 32 menteri kita ada...takan semua ni tak boleh fikir...inila dikelaskan...."pergi sekolah tiga tingkat tapi bodohnya 5, 6 tingkat".....

Lesson learned:
Kemudahan kelas pertama, mentality kelas ketiga

Di Ledang kita ketemu...

2006-02-23T10:00:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 23 Feb 2006

Went for Puteri Gunung Ledang - the musical with the other two friends. My comment would be....jeng jeng....good...cuma tak meleleh ajer air mata for some sad parts of the play...kalau tidak dah superb dah...worth seeing.

The most best part is when both of them (Gusti Putri and Laksamana Hang Tuah) made a promise to meet at the summit of Gunung Ledang..."di puncak ledang kita ketemu"....waduhhhh.

Sanguine, Choleric, Melancholy or Phlegnatic...who are you/

2006-02-22T11:03:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 22 Feb 2006

Went to meet Adi and DIA at KLCV. Adi please be punctual!!!. I hate that. As usual had some arguments with Adi about something which that never end and will never come into a conclusion whos wrong or right or what is the best. As promised, Adi and DIA did the personality test using the book by Littauer, Florence (Adi this is the author) either we are Popular Sanguine, Powerful Choleric, Perfect Melancholy or Peaceful Phlegmatic. As what I predicted, Adi memang melancholy among others sets high standards, wantd everthing done right, analytical conscientious schedule oriented where The Introvert, The Thinker and The Pessimist is in this type or people. DIA also in the same category as Adi... Looking back, my score was one point higher for Peaceful Phlegmatic category compared to Perfect Melancholy which means the person is calm, cool and collected, competent and steady and has compassion and concern...

This book is a good reading if you need to understand others by understanding yourself...Its though about whether a person is a spontaneous, vivacious, cheerful as Sanguine (I think Faezah), a thoughtful, faithful, persistent as Melancholy, an adverturous, persuasive, confident as Choleric or a friendly, patient, contented as Phleegmatic (as myself).

At the end of our meeting, another argument with Adi on his three kids where currently raise by him...(eventhough they live in Ractar!!!)..."Merekala jantung hati I and I hope they can look after me when I am old"..."You, Ross is currently living alone in a "deserted" in Shah Alam with three cats...Olen, Nana and Joey.." The answer...when you raised someone don't ask for reward, just do it not because of you have so call motive to be taking care for future. Well this is back to my previous entry on why people still looking for life companion(s) when they already suffered from previous marriage(s)...

Pelajaran utk hari ini:

Motive and Reward...Love vs Life Companion...where do you prefer

Akrab...

2006-02-21T14:25:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 21 Feb 2006

Lately feeling a bit tired of at the office, rumah dan sewaktu dengannya. Mana taknyer racket squash yg dibeli masa cuti CNY masih lagi belum dirasmikan...Thinking wanna to start back my long holiday since CNY and my mum was here...Suppose to start yesterday end up terperuk depan pc ni buat kerja2 semasa...

My mum went back last Sunday with my brother who came over for the kenduri doa selamat at my sister's residential. Mak aku looks so happy during the kenduri oleh kehadiran my other sister and the kid + cicitnyer and other of my cousins. Kak Min came with his 4th husband without the kids. kekadang terfikir why people need to have the life companions after they facing so much hassles in their marriage life....very subjective. Nak kata nak cari husband kaya...she earns more that the husband...nak kata nak husband handsome...entahla...no further question.

Sunday I just hanging at my sister's house and helping her do the cooking. The best part our mum teach us how to cook gulai pisang...so berselera when the food was served plus the ikan terubuk goreng....

Pelajaran hari ini:
Family ties are more important than money...

Kesibukan Tahap Cipan

2006-02-15T15:33:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 15 Feb 2006

This is my entry after a short of missing in actions. Past few days and even now aku rasa macam nak menjerit aje...bertimun-timbun kerja yg tiada penghujung plus banyaknyer surat surat nak kena balas...

Dirk invited me to fly to Spain + Brussels (kg halaman aku) to be with his family for holiday...fully paid for the trip...teruja dengan proposal tu...but aku doubt not because of him but because of my tight schedule dan dgn tidak menentunya 'keiklasan' boss aku nak bagi cuti more than 4 days except for big occassion or festival. Aku nak sangat kembali ke Brussels to bring back the sweet memories....to Brugge, Anwtpen and the rest of other cities around Europe...Kalau nak pergi balik alamat kena tunggu tiga to four years after aku settle all my debts...

Last Monday early in the morning received a call from aone of prominent head hunting company, asking whether I would be interested for an interview as one of important post in one of a prominent assets management company belongs to our government...teruja lagi...so tengahari tu aku pun gi to Changkat Raja Chulan passed my updated CV where the one the consultant had is already expired....emmme...the package sound good + car allowance...opppsss..tapi tula lately my thinking is ver conservative due to the previous employment..need to think first before the offer comes...

Pelajaran untuk hari ini:

Berfikir secara rasional

Anugerah

2006-02-06T11:47:00.000+08:00

Monday, 6 Feb 2006

So happy with AJL2005 last night. The result shows that only with quality song writer, nice lyric and the best performance deserve the award....seronok sangat tengok Jac and Hazami menang. Taniah for them. About Mawi tu I reserve my comment. Nanti kang ada pulak yg mengamuk...hehhe...The emcees were good, tak ada celoteh yg memeluatkan dan meleret. Bravo Media Prima and Hotfm...lebih hangat dari biasa

My mum is here at my sister's house since last Tuesday...so almost everyday aku kat sana melayan mak aku bersembang.

Masuk office pagi ni 7.20am...still dark...mana tak nyer the one selalu awal still cuti CNY...raya sakan..aku dah kemaruk nak kerja since last Saturday...bosannnnnnnnnnnn. Then due to long holiday apa lagi pagi ni kerja dah bertimbun with datelines...so luckly settle...

Layannnnnnnnnnnnnnn...

What a boring long holiday

2006-02-03T12:13:00.000+08:00

Friday, 3 Feb 2006

Emmmm...welcome back to the rality...first day in office where I drove to office from Seksyen 7 at 7am...what a surprise cause can reached Bukit Kiara within 30 minutes....emmmmeeee...may be people still in bed or spending their holiday religously....

This CNY,Maal Hijrah, FD...kali nila paling membosan kan...Luckly I just stay at my sister's place taking care of her two cats...Balqis and no name...

Last night was the most interesting...mana tak nyer...at 11pm...right after my dinner alone, my sister called me from the dining to check something wrong with Balqis...few minutes before she asked me to send Balqis to my vet due for her since dia dah sarat and biar dia selesa sikit since the accident...tetiba aje the blood and air (aku tak ingat the term) dah keluar...OMG...boleh nampak the kitten head from her back....wahhhh....kakak aku tu cepat panic and terus naik atas don't want to experience this....(this is my second time aku experienced this)...seronok...but looking at her paintful situation made me sad and kesian...till this morning only one black kitten she delivered and according to the vet she is expecting three...harap dia ok...

What a wonderful ciptaan tuhan after seen this miracle...

Yesterday too, I received back my wallet which I dropped in from of my sis's the other day from the newpapers delivery's man. Luckly nothing missing especially my IC. Worst is I already canceled my bank card apa lagi yesterday went to Cyberjaya and reapplied for new card.

Till now my conversation with Naz is still at status quo...look and see...I can't just forgive and forget about the Friday incident where I waited almost two hours with no justify excuse...just because he is from a rich family doesn't mean he can simply "order" people and "instruct" other people to follow according to him need and cancel or pospone the plan sesuka hati...Feeling sad with this kind of people....memohon maaf with no meaning baik tak payah...

Pelajaran untuk hari ini....
To forgive but hard to forget....

Janji tinggal janji

2006-01-27T15:00:00.000+08:00

Friday, 27 January 2006

The traffic was not as bad I could image due to the delay. The riding was so smooth and I wish it will be like this in coming days...impossible

In office there is no holiday mood for coming festival session eventhough those who celebrate CNY are as many as Malay...we like normal working day and I notice this is a good sign for our organisation.

At around 11, received a call from a bank where I am currently the guarantor for two friends. These two idots have default to make their obilgation. One has already 5 months late and the other 2 months late. I called these idots and managed to got one with the highest default....The answer was, the husband and the wife will make a lump sum payment sometime in March 2006. I just need to brear for another two months for this nonsence....I even said the four letter words to the wife and the husband....The other person does not even bother to answer my phone or return my sms....She denied when I mentioned that received a letter from the bank lawyer few months back. She said that was not true. The thing is she didn't receive the letter or notification about the default because she has changed the address....With their huge salaries compare with mine...I have no idea where the money goes....Inila yang dikatakan tak ada berkat

How could people do this to other human being....craps....Hanya pada nama sajer muslim and pemegangan nama seorang melayu...memalukan..This is not suppose to be a muslim and malay's attitude...

What ever the situation it is, I have to take....I treat as part of cycle of life yg ada pasang surutnya....Mungkin aku telalu berlembut dan senang nak diperlakukan dalam soal2 macam ni...redha ajela.

Pelajaran hari ini:
Sustance over form...

Curiosity...

2006-01-26T10:47:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 26 January 2006

The word curiosity suddenly popped into my mind..Why year...Just wonder why those corporate figures love to siphon people's money to get rich and rich. Don't they wonder what could happened to them in next life (what ever believe la) ememme. Duit berkepuk-kepuk tak cukup lagi???

Reading the recent court ruling of the toll operator near Cheras...on the claimed by the judge that one of the prominent corporate figure had siphoned some RM34 mil (or RM32mil) triggered some question. Then start all those claiming between those people that might or possible sharing the money between them that they are not involved with this called nonsense. This guy will pointing another guy and the other guy will pointing another guy...so is back within the circle. Macam masing-masing baling kentang panas....hehhe...Tapi tula sepandai-pandai tupai melompat akhir ke tanah juga...There is a lot of other cases and more glamour than this recent one. I reserve my comment with these kind of issue cause is involve a lot of parties eg politician, prominent corporate figures.

After a while, I realised that selama ni falsafah aku..."money can't buy your happniest" memang betul.

Pelajaran untuk hari ini:

Money can't buy your happinest

Gembira dalam suram

2006-01-24T16:33:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 24 January 2005

Nothing much to write for today. As early as 6.50am stucked at Hicom interchange due to a car which stopped at the fast lane. Luckly yesterday three cars involved in an accident at the same time and the traffic start to build up till 9am. If this thing keep repeating alamat kena keluar rumah around 5am kot.....

Past few days feeling a bit easy. Don't know why...may be it is due to my changing of may I appreciate life and future. One of my 2006 resolutions is to keep fit which currently I am doing now...feeling so relief with stress free past few days. Emak aku memainkan peranan penting dalam selok belok hidup. May be my friend advice and Dirk were right...that "don't narrow my perception towards life when thing doesn't get along with what you want". One of thing which I can see, aku dah start enjoying night life...I mean the good one. Years back I didn't go out for movies or entertainment in view of all the financial and personal problem I am accounted for. Being a financial independent guy with easy money and higher status to another sad and sorrow career with a disaster lifestyle....and ended in a negative attitude

But now those positive changes keep me alive eventhough the constraints and bad qi avoid me going forward, but I take it as part and parcel of life. Believe in myself will strive me to a better person...insyallah....

Pelajaran untuk hari ini:
Fikiran positif mematangkan seseorang....

Party Time....

2006-01-23T16:54:00.000+08:00

Monday, 23 January 2006

Went to Shah and Ciki's birthday gathering at Sommerset KL on Saturday night. The place is actually near to MQ which I have never been to the place before. Thinking might be those people would later request me and him to join them...memang betul...but refused to go cause it was too late for us to go back to Shah Alam...realised how far is my place...

Saturday morning was a bit slow for me...just woke up and realised that I need to achieve something before end of the day...Yes...need to do the housekeeping. Ok starting from vacuum the floor and cleaning the cat's cage plus the bathrooms...Ended up the task finished at 6pm...a record..then aku siap for the Party...

Sunday nothing much, just had my branch at Treats near to Kota Kemuning..not really impress with the food..Petang paid a visit to my sister house just to check my nephews and niece and the cat name Balqis...she was hit by my brother in-law...cian...luckly...nothing serious happend to her...and she is currently pregnant....

At the party, Jo the NZ's chief was there and the situation turned from a bit boring to more joyful moment. Ada ker patut si Rizal introduced him as Miss New Zealand...aku pun curious siapala pulak datang masa kelibat dia belum nampak...

Zul and Jo were the most entertaining celebrities for the night. Aku ketawa tak ingat dunia. Ada-ada aje benda yang dia orang buta joke...

The food eemememm...sedap..

Pelajaran untuk hari ini:
Berparti, bermesra jangan sampai memencil diri

Feeling....

2006-01-19T09:50:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 19 January 2006

Feeling relief since the meeting was over. For the past few weeks my persistence towards the cases and presentations seem to be good. Boleh menarik nafas lega...

These few days my emotional feeling rasa macam ada sesuatu yang tak kena, tak pasti etc..Keep asking why? But there is no answer for that. Trying not to thinking about this feeling sehingga aku pergi gym yg lama dah ditinggalkan. After dalam gym, singgah sekejap kat squash menonton Ashraf and Imran main. Then they invited me to join them to start the game. Aku terus agree with one condition...they need to teach me to play which I have no idea at all about the game. I need to do something about the whole of dull and boring life currently I have...tidur, kerja, kerja, makan, kerja...makan, kerja bangun, olen nana and joe, plant...tu aje...At the end of the gym + 'squash' session...rasa better....

Keep asking myself past few days does the dull and boring life I am currently facing is due to the 'empty' since Isz left me? Possible. Replacement...Yes I hope so...but who, where and when? Time is running out...am I old to ask for the replacement...entah...It is not about just being with someone so call warm body but it is more than that....Has a few meetings...then the angry, the possible consequences whether good of bad start playing...at the end of the day feeling restless...agree with Zul's statement.."ross for how long this journey to come to the end..it like bayang-bayang"...oppppsss...ok...back to reality...

Pelajaran untuk hari ini:
Consequences will make you a better person day by day.

Relief

2006-01-18T17:02:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 18 January 2006

Can't have a proper sleep this morning...reason: feeling tired till you can even close your eyes...till it is already 5.45am...time to wake up...

As usual the traffic started to built up near to Hicom interchange, luckly passed that area around 7am. Had my breakfast at Jaring and realising it is too early and the staff yet to serve food. I just have nasi goreng tanpa terfikir yg sepatutnyer berpuasa...tak apa la esok aje la puasa sunat tu...there goes my sunat...

At the department the tension start to build up cause near to the meeting...luck the outstanding completed and I done an extra work...

The meeting start at 3.30pm a bit late and hahahha...gumbira...I will not be in the meeting...lega...bolehla aku berjimba-jimba...

After a while realising that I have boring and dull personal life...pergi kerja balik kerja nothing much to do...I need to think something if not...teringat senikata lagu Sheila "Tua sebelum waktunya..."

Okla at least this coming Saturday have a plan to attend Ciki and Shah's birthday...makan lagi...love Ciki's cooking...ememem...walah..

Pelajaran hari ini:

Buat keputusan untuk diri sendiri bukan kerana orang lain...

Memoirs of .....

2006-01-16T08:51:00.000+08:00

Went to office last Saturday at 10am to complete the presentation. Was informed that the netweork is not working. Luck me cause my pc is not connected to the ups so try to complete it as much as possible. Later had a conversation with my supervisor about my presenation where need to repair for certain issues...noted

Later that afternoon rushed to have lunch with Zaki kat Uptown then heading backed to his place. Just watching the tv with him and Aziz was there too. Feeling so tired and lepas tu received a call from Zul need my favour to fetch him tonite. Zul siap tanya lagi kat rumah Zaki kerrr? But I just denied it. Takut pulak timbul cerita lain.

Then to my sister's house at Seksyen 7 and had dinner...gulai ikan masih with ikan cencaru belah belakang...yummy...mana taknyer my sister ni love cooking and she knows I love the curry. heading back to my place and found out lighting striked and my tv....gone...ayo...satu hal lagi...

Fecthed Zul first and heading to One Utama and jumpa the rest Faiz and Muntaz, Shaniza and Korma. Tup2 si Faiz tanya Shaniza...why Ross and Zul are getting closer lately...aku macam ikk...rerupanyer ada orang perasaan...wah ini dah bagus...mengendeng2 la lagi dgn Zul...hahhah..

The movie was so good. Proud to be Asian. Kudos to Dato' Yeoh...After Memoirs went for a teh tarik session with the rest where end up there till 4.45am...Reach home at 5.30 just waiting for Subuh...

Hope, faith, patience and persistence.......

2006-01-13T12:27:00.000+08:00

Friday, 13 January 2006

Yesterday with no entry. I woke up early in the morning feeling something big on my head and can't even move it. I think I better go to the clinic before I reach the office. That was the thought. Text my superior about being late due to this. Stucked in the traffic jam almost 45 minutes and in the clinic about half an hour. The doctor said is is probably due to my food intake (tau day apa doc nak cakap: red meat)...He...And my blood pleasure. I was advised to take one day off. OK!!!!

There goes my Thursday...Doing nothing after the medication ...terbaring menunggu hari gelap for Friday. Yes I have no life if I don't go to the office during weekdays...horrible kan..but that me for the past few months ni since Isz moved out from my life and the house. No replacement till now.

Today, due to the rushing hours in office and to complete my assignments, suddenly I was summoned to my HOD's room. He compliment my work on the recent fact of case....GOOD WORK. He even mentioned about the reassigned I have to do so call QC...where I should appreciate the tasks to be given by the team....emmm...ok boss no further comment.

Thursday also made another bang...I called the interviewer and the answer was ...I am no shortlisted...ok life goes on....

Luckly my department's member knew about all the issues and they consoled me and aku tertarik dgn satu ayat ni: " When the world does not seem to go our way, hope, faith, patience and persistence shall take us through..."

Tomorrow night...Geisha with Shaniza, Zul and the other 6 of us...

Dilarang Memancing

2006-01-11T10:26:00.000+08:00

On Friday night straight went to Zul's house at Sri Damansara after leaving Olen, Nana and Joey at home with tonnes of food and water. Feel sad went Olen made one kind of face...pity him...Kat rumah Zul, that guy just got back from Tesco dengan groceries nak suruh aku masah for the so call...majlis Aidil Adha....for anak-anak buluh betong like us yg tak balik beraya...

Started cooking at 9pm an only completed the task around 10.40pm...semua dah datang and kelaparan...Faiz and Naz. Resham (almost one year tak ketemu) and the other three Aziz, Zaki and Zack. Semua memuji2 my dishs...hahahah...kembang sekejap...

Malam tu denag rasa penatnyer tertidur tak ingat dulu. Bangun almost 7am then teringat kena gi SS2 pick up Aziz and Zaki for the prayer. Heading back to Taman Tun where we permormed our prayer...ada ker patut these people (Aziz and Zack) sambil menyelam sambil memancing...ayo...tapi apa kurangnyer aku...sama...patut kena letak satu board kat masjid tu "DILARANG MEMANCING"

Zul and myself sepatut pergi rumah Naz kat Gombak for the majlis korban...end up tidur till 2pm...penat giler...Bila dah bangun tengok tv and sambung tidur...rasa jadi ular sawa...

Received call from Naz and Resham for dinner at Sri Damansara...makan lauk without rice..kenyang amat..Naz brought along lauk daging korban..

Straight went back after that to Shah Alam without sedar aku tertinngal handphone dlm kereta Zul...ammmm..ok ajela..

Too much red meat rasa pening la pulak pepagi kerja ni...Pagi ni try to get sesiapa ada Zul's number...ememe satu kerja...

Almost completed my fact of cases and tinggal power point aje yg masih terkinja2 nak cari idea...eemmm..

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha

2006-01-09T08:33:00.000+08:00

Monday, 9 January 2006

Was at my sister's place untuk menempek time shooting Nana Tanjong. Akhirnya dapat juga bergambar dengan Apek. He actually was sicked last few days and they posponed the shooting. Nice guy. Ada satu scene where they (Apek, Waheeda, Fasha and Ain) were suppose to see a movie and Nana (Piee) came from the back and instructed the three girls to set a the back where Apek being the future son in law cuba membodek Piee. Dialog lebih kurang macam ni..."Hang nak pi tengok wayang ka hang nak buat wayang..."Piee answered "Hang la satu orang kepercayaan aku" ...They made the scene so interesting dan aku kat belakang hentam ketawa anak2 sedara kat belakang...

Back to reality....no firm answer yet from Dubai. Looking forward for that. My recent reattachment to other unit make me feel a bit uneasy during last weekend. Just being thinking the rationale of all the resuffle. Lat Friday afternoon, the news made know to everyone during the department meeting and aku, Mira and Anita were relocated to the QC and existing two staff were transfered to other unit. Luck for them. The down sindrom aku pun kembali on my way back home. Dahla jam bangat. Nak ikut NKVE dengar banjir kat Bukit Jelutong last followed LDP and kecoh jugak. Sprint aje dah sejam...lenguh kaki tangan.

Performed my Ishyak at 10.30pm and did my laundry after that...any sleep...malas nak fikir all those craps...

Today after work will spend my AidilAdha with Zul kat Sri Damansara since he also will in KL. The rest of our friends, Naz, Korma, Shaniza have there own program especially Naz busy preparing for his engagement this CNY. Kalau Zul tak invite aku mau aku mati kutu kat rumah...bekerja lagi bagus dari duduk bercuti...gila namaner tu.

For those who celebrate Hari Raya...Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha...drive safely and happy holiday to the rest.

Don't Be Sad

2006-01-06T12:13:00.000+08:00

Friday, 6 January 2006

Past few days ni busy dekat office aku sorang yg tahu...hahahah..melampau lampau...pepagi masuk terus tak boleh bercakap attended meeting and complete notes and need to complete at least 4 fact of cases...wowoowowo...itu belum cukup lagi dah complete tu need to do the slides for those cases...wowowoowowo.....

This Aidilahda pun tak amik cuti since the meeting will be on 18. Emmmm...kalau sampai rumah terus beta

lelap. Then this morning rasa satu penampar melekap kat muka ni since I was relocate to another team buat so call "Quality Control" rasa macam kerja kat kilang...mat spanar and minah kilang and with immediate effect. This is in view of inadequate number of staff and it will be liked fluid....Yg aku tak paham aku swap dengan other team member so those rationalisation does seem good. Symptom aje dia knock off but not the problem.

Anyhow just concentrate to my tasks. Tuhan akan meletak hambaNya di tempat yang terbaik...amin..

Pelajaran untuk hari ini:
We fear lest some misfortune oa a disaster may befall us (Quran 5:52)

2006-01-04T10:48:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 4 Jan 2006

Enter into the department...rasa seram pulak. Entah tertiba tak sedap perut...kerja berlambak and today is ny boss first day in 2006. OOoooooooo...luckly nothing happen yet. Why I am so afraid...nothing to do with my deliverables. Only the environment here is a bit stress. Two of my collegues were transfered to other departments. So towards end of 2005 the total is already 4 and without any replacement yet. Emmm so the left over cases will be so called "delegate" to other team members....Nak nangis aku. But thinking on the positive side...is is also good cause I like working with 1000 new issues...Pakcik rasa dah jadi tangan lapan...

Thinking of going to my sis's house tonite. Sajer nak menempek tengok lakonan Waheeda yg ayu jelita berseri sentiasa dgn Apek (kalau dia adala)...

Pelajaran untuk hari ini:
Kuat usaha berbaloi dengan imbuhan

2006-01-03T10:32:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 3 January 2006

First day working in 2006. Semangat sikit...

Last couple of days, starting Friday terpaksa jadi jaga kat rumah my sister. Kenapa? glamour rumah kakak aku tu...jadi lokasi pengambaran filem Nana Tanjung...my sister, the husband and my small nephew were away to Langkawi and leave my other niece and eldest nephew kat rumah tu. Dapatla aku jumpa dengan Fasha Sanda, Waheeda, Pak Piee on the first day and the rest Mamak Maiden...Kelakar jugak tengok acting2 tu especially Pak Piee. He is already 73 years old and still fit. Really respect him...dedikasi and displin. No wonder these old timers can stay popular and in good demand untuk sekian lama.

Saturday on the new year eve dari pagi sampai petang aku berkemas and do some laundry...malamlak ada house warming kat rumah Shah in Cheras..emmm...nice lokasi. Almost tak pergi cause on the way to draw some $$...rerupanya semua Maybank ATM satu Malaysia out of service...luckly ada RM4 and tangki minyak still berisi...kelakar...kelakar..

From Shah's residence can see KLCC and part of Dataran punya fireworks...lovely but bila dah banyak sangat fireworks asap pun berkepul kepul..

Sunday backed to my sister's place dan dapat rasakan buat filem ni bukannye senang...and one insident nak ambek gambar dengan Waheeda...dia cakap dgn my niece, aku ni husband dia...wow terasa mudanyer aku atau aku yg dah look old enough...She is so sweet same goes to Fasha...both of them nice people tak sombong..

Only then I knew that kalau seorang pelakon tak datang for shooting it will affect the whole production and cost will increase...mana tak nyer...Apek sepatutnyer muncul for the shooting claimed he was admitted at the hospital and tak dapat dihubungi. Cian yg lain tu. Had a small chat with Waheeda and she said this is first time incident pelakon tak muncul happened at her...Kul 10pm aku pun balik semula to my place since the whole shooting was cancel...cost cost cost. Try to compare between Apek, Pak Piee and Pak Maiden and not to judge.

Pelajaran utuk hari ini:
Jadi la seperti padi, makin tunduk makin berisis, jangan jadi lalang...

2005-12-30T07:57:00.000+08:00

Friday 30 December 2005

Reached office at 7am...wow...so early mahhhh...yela nak menutup tirai hari bekerja terakhir di tahun 2005. Selamat datang 2006.

Selamal took half day off to attend the interview. Sebelum tu joined my department ber'riadah' kat Curve. Aku join aje nothing to buy. Nak habiskan masa sebelum gi interview. The session runs smoothly despite I am the last candidate for the day. Ada enam semua. Rasa2nyer semua tu tak sebangsa dengan aku kecuali aku ni Melayu. Terfikir pulak boleh ker diaorg tu kerja kat UAE. Entah...

terus balik lepas tu dengan girang cuma cemas kalau rezeki tak ada. Setiap kali kalau aku yakin dapat dan last sekali tak dapat...frust menonggeng....

2005 Almost comes to the end...banyak memories yang bakal ditinggalkan...Isz, Kak Nik (should I call her Kak????...ohhh tidak bitch), UiTM...sad...

The best is aku masih bernafas menongkah (betul ker spelling ni?) meniti liku-liku perjalanan yg penuh onak duri hidup ni...dulu 2004...yearend housemate blah macam tu without proper farewell...still survive...then 2005...macam spinning gasing...lepas satu satu...tapi tula spt kata tompel dlm cerita Ahmad Albab..."kebahagian, kesenangan datang dari bapak..." yg aku change..."ajal maut, rezeki ditangan Tuhan".

Yes HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006

P/S : For Dirk, Brussels, Belgium...thanks you so much for the kind support

2005-12-28T12:22:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 28 December 2005

Entered into the department today, received an e-mail from boss requesting an update on certain issue on urgent basis. Luckly all the information is in the file. Just updated my supervisor about the issue and current status. When I read back the e-mail it was actually trigger point to my boss cause he was not being updated as the information given another manager looks like just from lower ranking executive...macam balaci...

Tengah-tengah rancak buat kerja, tetiba bunyi pulak fire alarm...ikkk...terfikir aku seketika ini dah masuk tiga kali fire drill...takkan ada lagi untuk menutup 2005. Terus semua turun and took almost half an hour for the "exercise".....okla Bomba pun nak jugak kerja kan...takkan nak lepak aje.

Ooooo...yg best tu my interview tomorrow. Had a nice dream semalam kekononnya I secured the job but berbelah- bagi then the best is I consulted my boss what the best for my career path. He then encouraged me to go ahead cause benda2 macam tu tak selalu datang. Apa lagi aku terus submitted my resignation...then ...terkejut rupa2nya mimpi...

Pelajaran hari ini: Tak salah berangat cuma perlu ada usaha baru ada jaya

2005-12-22T15:28:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 22 December 2005

Had horrible day yesterday. Woke in the middle of the night, the headache and nose bleeding. Just sent an sms for halfday off. Rasanye all of these are due to my tight schedule in office. Anyhow that is not the only horrible thing happend. Today is the most disaster, Tsunami, earthquake or whateverla...got my my result and better not to disclose....feeling down and almost take halfday just wanna to meet my coordinator, but after a while tak payahla and later called her and found out that I cannot appeal and need to wait for another semester for me to apply to be transfered to another course as fresh student without considering my credit...rasa satu penampar kena kat muka ni and aku tak boleh nak sembunyikan my feeling ni and told my friends about this...Kalaula aku postpone dulu my last semester takla jadi macam ni...maybe ada hikmah dgn workload and thousand tonnes of problem plus dgn pendeknyer semester...well setahun setengah kat faculty tu buat master aku rasa tak berbaloi...opppsss...tak boleh fikir macam tu....life goes on...mana nak tahu pintu kat Dubai dah menanti aku...InsyaAllah...

Pelajaran untuk hari ini : Berusaha bersungguh tangga kejayaan...

2005-12-19T15:23:00.000+08:00

Monday 19 December 2005

Arrived in office a bit late almost 9am due to the last Friday raid which ended at 2.30am. Reached home at 3am. Feeling horrible tired.

9.30am joining other departments for presentation by KPMG on this new 21 Financial Reporting Standards to be govern beginning 1 Jan 2006. My knowledge those standards are so so...Anyhow need to do some reading and exercise to be more familiar.

Kekononnye lunch nak gi Mid Valley, OMG the traffic towards parking macam lalat hinggap kat nXJXs je..so all of us ended up makan kat kedai mamak ner to Kg Attap. Aku tak nak lunch so minum ajela cause tadi breakfast and break presentation berat dah.

Back in office fill-up my unrecorded leave for tomorrow due to last Friday's assignment. Sunyi cause most of us are still in the presentation. Walah.....

2005-12-16T08:26:00.000+08:00

Friday, 16 December 2005

Just a short entry today...kejap lagi ada task kat luar. Semalam during Alias on 8tv, received called from Razak long long lost friend. He just on way back alone from Sg Buluh towards Damansara. Asking him where there is the other part of him. Answered, at home...eememme..being living together almost 6 years. Gembira tengok kawan sendiri have a good and stable job and secured relationship. As for me start thinking "bila la aku nak dapat semua tu...stable, good pay etc job with nice living companion"...till now no answer...

Yesterday penat sangat kat office, the current case I am looking into need me to open my book back how a consolidated entry from the very beginning. Dah tak berapa ingat bila tak buat latihan. Then received message from boss need to facilitate a task which I hate most this morning...rasa macam balaci. Kalau dalam filem PRamlee - Tiga Abdul - teringat dialog masa PRamlee balik the next day with girlfriend and introduced her to the family.."..Yg itu...tukang masa...bla...bla...dan yg tua kutuk nak mampus tu pecacai tua angkat nXXs..."

Pelajaran untuk hari ini : Sabar tak ada akhirnya

2005-12-15T10:21:00.000+08:00

Thursday 15 December 2005

Feeling down and sad a bit this morning. Out of sudden the feeling of insecure inside me invoke and trying to dominate my current situation. Masuk office pun rasa macam something missing inside me. Everything you feel not right...Hopefully the situation will be better menjelang tengahari.

Went back last night had dinner with Sharul kat Nasi Lemak Cikgu, Kelana Jaya. Si Sharul ni a bit late terpaksa melanggut kat situ a while. Sambil tu watching news about the ketuk ketampi incident and business news. Kalaula tak ada sesiapa yg merakam situasi itu, pasti tak kecoh. Kalaula betul Si Zulfatah tu yg rakamkan semua memangla dia mengambil advantage kedudukan beliau as government staff for his own interest. Konst. wanita dlm incident tu mesti dlm trauma...ahhh...tunggu ajela hasil siasatan kes ni for our own dignity.

lepas dengar news the announcement by Group MD, Media Prima of the average 8 months bonus for TV3 staff...terus aku terkedu...memikirkan rezeki rakan2 aku kat situ dan Shaniza kat ntv7 where it was aquired by Media Prima and later the staff were offered vss. Luckly Shaniza tak dapat....

Pejaran untuk hari ini: Jalankan tugas dengan rasa tanggungjawap

2005-12-14T14:47:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 14 December 2005

Post untuk hari ni lewat disebabkan masalah teknikal yang tak dapat dielak...itula lame excuse yg selalu aku dengar dalam perkhidmatan komuter or lrt disini. Tak pernah nak bagi announcement train mengalami masalah kelewatan disebabkan masalah pengendali train itu sendiri...

Teringat semalam time discussion with my supervisor, received a call from head hunter to further discuss about my application to work in UAE...wow...ingatkan bila aku hantar CV last week maybe tak mungkin dipanggil even worst case kiv je..syukur rasanyer...dapatla aku bertugas semula di luar Msia. Teringat time tahun 1999 until end 2001 masa di Brussels, Belgium - the country, I wish I can be there permanently. Masa time tu jugakla my beloved father meninggal a day after I touched bumi Belgium...tapi tak terkilan sangat cause dapat mercakap denganya beberapa jam sebelum tu....emmmm...ajal maut semua ketentuanNya.

Pagi ni boss terus called for department meeting...ayo...terasa bahangnya pasal banyak outstanding matter dengan dia. Luckly he only presented about our department's performance for current year and the bonus, increment and promotion yg semua org nak dengar. According to him, management only looks at the KPIs and development of our deliverables...and for my case aku dah achieved 40++ portfolios and target nak dijadikan 60 this coming year. Tak balik rumah la aku gamaknyer.

Lunch keluar dgn member bertiga pergi Ikea jejalan sebab bfast still rasa dlm perut...jadi tengok2 jamu mata...member aku siap buat list with prices apa nak beli lepas dpt bonus...Insyallah.

Pelajaran hari ini : Buat yang terbaik akan dibalas dengan baik

2005-12-13T11:57:00.000+08:00

Tuesday 13 December 2005

Emmm...rindu sangat dengan blog for the past few days tak blogging. Thanks for Adam read my blog.
Semalam took one day off nak langsaikan annual leave yg tak habis habis. Last year we can cash-out the one third of the annual leave tapi sayang tahun ni benda-benda tu ditarik balik. Kalau tak boleh la shopping sikit. Suppose yesterday ada perjanjian syaitan bertemu dengan 2 wanita somebodies wives. Berjanji nak jumpa kul 5.30pm kat KLCC...suppose meet kat Chilli...Both of them are my former colleagues kat so call "the premier assets management company in Malaysia" (which i doubt so!!!). Seorg my supervisor yg dah blah on the day she suppose to get her confirmation letter and another one our pool secretary yg dah moved to another division after so many struggling with the bitch in our former department ...wow...macam emotional aku bila cerita hal-hal ni... memang emotional cause this bitch makes my life mireable...Tapi tula tuhan tu maha kaya lagi maha pengasihani...rezeki, ajal maut etc semuanyer di tanganNya. Anyhow disebabkan Monday akan jadi havoc kat jejln sekitar KL decided to take comuter and lrt. Belum pun tiba kat station Subang Jaya to KLSentral dpt message yg meeting to be canceled due one of them ada planning lain...Apa lagi angin satu badanla aku. Mana tak nyer dah on the way...kalau pun nak cancel please la at least awal sikit...ini org dah dlm train...Aku pun terus ajela kekonon nak jumpa lain lain mangsa aku...sms kawan aku ni dgn harapan dia ada kat booth KLCC sempena dgn Asean Summit tu...tapi hampes...he can't make it...emmm...double angin ribut semua...Apala nak memujuk hati luka lara ni dah sampai kat KLCC terus aku gi order hot chocolate kat Starbuck...area yg tak ramai sgt kat KLSentral tu....aku forbia kalau ramai orang...boleh nak muntah, pening, pitam macam pompuan mengandung...no wonder I always skip crowd...realise usia dah meniti...hahahah...hati riang suka hati.

Emmm...then straight went back to Shah Alam disebabkan kecewa dgn keadaan yg kucar kacir kat KLCC kalau aku pergi and tak akan ada arah tujuan kalau aku terus ke situ..At least I know tahu...plan baik tak semestinya jadi...

Pelajaran hari ini: Apa yang terjadi adalah kehendahNya.

2005-12-09T09:32:00.000+08:00

Friday, 9 December 2005

Woke up a bit late today at 7am eventhough set the time at 5.30am ni gara-gara KLCC semalam la till almost 10pm. On way sendding Izah to lrt Masjid Jamek received a call from used to be my close buddy, Linda...she said that she is with Ju tengah berseronok having dinner kat California Pizza and asked aku nak join tak...memula tu reluctant jugak cause the traffic was so bad...ada ker dari Jln Parlimen nak ke Masjik Jamek took us almost one hour....apa punya barang macam ni...tapi lepas hantar Izah. I called her back and saying that I on my way there....Ingat nak paking kat mana-mana naik lrt tapi memandangkan dah almost there aku pun teruskan aje kaki ni....

Sesampai aje kat sana terus cari bilik kecik nak sebab petang banyak minum air and hujan gerimis dgn suasana sejukkkkkk...lega...Kat California Pizza terserempak pulak my niece, Siti dgn suku sakat suaminer...kat situ...my niece ni is the eldest among anak2 buah aku...dah beranak dua...sedangkan Pak Teh dia ni bujang kekal...hahahhah...

Meeting almost two hours with Linda and Ju rerasa macam tak cukup...mana tak nyer tiga2 bujang and so other commitment kat rumah except kekucing aku...then borak pasal kerja and life. Linda still working in Taxation line, while Ju pulak dgn Corporate banking nyer dgn sebuah bank yg akhir2 ni berkemelut sekejap..Ju suggested I join her bank in view of the current situation that I am facing...tengokla...the thing is I love my current job...the work, the people, the surrounding etc...only a bit upset is the package...makin hari asyik kena tarik, kurang sini...tak apa lerI take it as a challenge semua atas ujian tuhan....

Sent Linda to Maluri and Ju and me terus bertolak ke Shah Alam...Ju staying with he parent kat Sri Muda..Balik terus kucup kucing2 ku...Nana, Joey and Olen...kesian seharian dlm kurungan...

Lesson today: Sesuatu yang baik akan dibalas dengan baik juga...

2005-12-08T09:47:00.000+08:00

Thursday 8 December 2005

This morning reading the news about Yusry and Erra, thinking about what I just wrote few days ago..."wang tak menjamin kebahagian". Andaian aku mereka tu kaya-raya, nak makan apa, pakai apa petik jari aje...but there must be somthing missing which make them realised that the marriage is at stake...sama jugak dengan cerita semalam I heard about selebriti tv kena serkup...dia tu boleh dianggap role model for me...penampilan etc semuanye menarik...sampaikan there was a special segmen for here during her wedding (tahun 90an) ...bukan nak aib sesiapa tapi mengambil ikhtibar yg manusia tak sempurna dan ada cacat celanyer. Akan kugagah merempuh badai ni...wah gitu...

Semalam due to heavy rain....sampai rumah pukul 9.30pm terus aje buat bread pudding for my officemate for her party today. Pukul 1030 baru selesai masukkan dlm oven...I hope she like it. ...Kalau dia suka aku tumpang gembira..

Olen and Jojo semalam terpaksa berlegar kat depan tv as I ordered them not to disturb me while I making the kueh...Malam dia org masuk kandang balik while I took Nana upstair...till morning Nana di sampingku.

Pelajaran hari ni...Manusia tak pernah puas dengan apa yg ada sebab mereka sendiri buka makhluk yg sempurna

2005-12-07T10:47:00.000+08:00

Wednesday 7 Dec 2005

The traffic today horrible betul...dari Shah Alam following the traffic like hell...kalaula aku ada power nak aje terbang...eememem...merepek betul..

Pagi ni slow sikit..woke up main-main dgn my cat, Nana...usap2 dia sikit...kenapa dia kurus lately ni...nak kata tak kasi makan...brand cat food yg ok punya..maybe she always fighting dgn Olen, another male cat yg setiap malas aku kurung dlm cage to avoid him menganas dlm rumah...

Esok ada meeting which I hate most, kerja these people tak satify I jadi balaci nak sudahkan kerja...payment nak...kerja hampes...masa nak datang dari Penang siap e-mail aku do I need something from Penang...aku bukan itu jaul beli....

2005-12-06T15:10:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 6 Dec 2005

Dari pagi sampai lunch mengadap calculation yg never ending story. Bosan aku memikirkan jerung-jerung korporat ni. Lunch tadi with four of us pergi Puteri, TTDI...spt biasa aku makan sup cendawan...kesukaan...kalau tak gi lunch kat Jln Duta ke MidValley jawapnyer menjamu mata aje...dulu ada jual yong tau foo dah tinggal nama...nak makan ikan bakar portugis memanjang ramai org so jawapnyer aku minum aje sebab yg lelain tu tak selera...

Semalam aje ada 2 sms, satu from someone aku tak tahu nak berkenalan...hello dah pukul 1am...kucing aku semua dah lena termasuk tuanyer..

Pelajaran utk hari ni...sentiasa bersedia utk hari esok, wang, kekayaan tak menjamin hidup bahagia...

2005-12-05T19:23:00.000+08:00

Post ke dua hari ni...naik syeh sikit...
Still in office with my other officemates and my HOD...outside the glass windows nampak gelap sangat...tak tahula kekalau malam ni hujan lagi...best....tapi mintak2 tak jam bangat macam pagi tadi nak keluar ke sini....

Sambil menulis ni aku terdengar conversation HOD dgn team leaders...berianyer mereka ni berdiskusi...adverse here and there...but I salute you...they way they are discuss the issues...they know what are they are talking about...bukan sesetengah org just pandai bercakap tapi apa pun tarak....lebih form dari substancenyer..sebab tu aku lebih banyak berdiam dari bercakap lately ni just digest the issue and only talk bila perlu...

Today...melihat pada figures yg aku calculate...terasa sgt yg manusia ni kebanyakkannyer greedy...problem suka push under the carpet atau biar jadi belon panas...membesar dan naik ke atas till tak boleh tanggung baru tersembur semua...buat business dgn menampakkan cantik pada luar akhirnyer lingkup...

2005-12-05T18:48:00.000+08:00

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